help!!!why does it have to be like this?

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Registered: 02-20-2004
help!!!why does it have to be like this?
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Tue, 04-11-2006 - 11:11am
Hello everyone i hope i have come to the right place for support ,suggestions,anything at this point :(..you know it has took me awhile but i have come to realize that yes i do have a eating disorder,i dont make my self sick .i just dont have the urge to eat what to ever i tried to stop smoking to see if that would help boy was i wrong just made it worse.i went to the doctor in feburary cause i was having trouble with my period an i weighed 97lbs i am 31 years old so alot of you could imagine what i looked like the doctor asked why i drop so much weight i told him hoping for help that i didnt have the urge to eat so he put me on prenatel vitems he said that should help well i went back last week an i was 103 cause on top of the vitams i was drinking ensure 3x a day.you know i feel so bad every day sometimes i dont even feel like getting out of bed or getting dressed nothing my husband told me to go to another doctor cause he is worried about me cause i know he gets irritaed but doesnt take it out on me cause he will ask for sex an i am just so ashamed of my body i dont even want him touching me i cry cause i feel ugly you can see mt bones it is awful i dont know maybe if it is just stress or even depression .i have 6 kids ( 2) teenage girls 14 an 13.a 10 year old girl a 6 year old girl an 2 boys (1) 3 yrs old an the other one 8months old an anyone that has kids could imagin the fighting ,bickering ,an everything else that comes with kids..lol sometimes my nerves get so bad i could just SCREAM,i cry alot cause my nerves get so bad i have tried nerve pills they didnot help an i guess just with everything that goes on my stress level is sky high nerves are bad an i just feel so depressed half the time i would just love to eat but i just dont have the urge just looking at food makes me feel sick to my stomach i just want to be able to feel the way i did before,i was happy,enjoyed an had a great sex life which i no longer have,i did things with my kids which i no longer do cause cause half the time i dont have the energe an i would just rather sit home everyone around me says they can tell i have changed i was just an outgoing person happy would do anything for anybody,but not now an this has been going on scence september.i dont know if it is the bay blues cause my last son was born in july 2005 or depression,nerves stress what it is.but i am SICK OF IT..if anyone has any suggestion or anything that would help thanks ....so this was so long
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Registered: 09-06-2005
Wed, 04-12-2006 - 10:44pm

Hi there -- I'm sorry things are so rough and things just seem to be too much.


I have twin teenage boys and I get enough from them but wow, you have a bunch!


Sometimes life gets us down -- and my unprofessional observation is that you are depressed enough and have been

 

 

~Diana~

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Registered: 02-20-2004
Thu, 04-13-2006 - 8:54am
Thank you,you know it really helps alot to when you have people you can talk to that go through the same thing..i know my stress level is sky high,an something i didnt mention i am a stay at home mom so that kinda adds to the stress an depression....maybe what i need is a nice long week VACATION with no kids.i know that sounds awful but it was a good thought
Thanks a bunch an i will keep posting
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Registered: 04-13-2006
Thu, 04-13-2006 - 10:54am

Hi. I'm new here too. I'm sorry you are going through a rough time. I'm also a SAHM of five kids. I can relate to everything you mentioned. I think what you are going through is a combination of everything; hormones, feeling isolated, not having the proper nutrition which is messing up the chemicals in your brain, the busy life you live trying to maintain a household of energetic kids....all of that will make you feel the way you do...depressed, maybe it's postpartum or maybe its more than that. I think you did the right thing by going to your dr and yes it is good to be taking the vitamins however your husband is right you need to see another dr, one who will listen and direct you to the care you need. Its very difficult to reach out to others for help. I've been in that hole many times and I still go there on occasion, I know I need help but I'm not at the point to actually change.

Hope you can find what you need. Good luck.

Kiki

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Registered: 09-06-2005
Thu, 04-13-2006 - 4:29pm

That doesn't sound awful.

 

 

~Diana~

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Registered: 02-06-2004
Fri, 04-14-2006 - 3:43am

It sounds to me that you do want to gain weight and eat normally. Is that correct? What is it that is stopping you

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