New Intro

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Registered: 05-03-2006
New Intro
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Thu, 05-04-2006 - 6:07am

Hey fellow I-villagers!

I did the same with the self harm Board, - introduing myself on the grounds i dont jump in at the deep end and reply to your posts without you knowing anything about me!

so here's me: I am 18 years old- Female, and was properly diagnosed with an eating disorderat 14. However have had it long before that, and since then I havnt seen anyone for a few years now.

I say that i "have one" meaning I know iv felt "fat" for a very long time, but as time goes on, it gets harder to admit I have an ED. perhaps the fact im on here may well show i am aware - yes to a certain extent. It doesnt stop me going on the net reguarly to take the quizzes and claim to tell you if there is a problem, or reading up about things and comparing myself.

I get fustrated that the "cross over" between "labels" is so close, and often get so confused i have no idea if im this or that. OOPS i am rambling now.

anyways, current situation is, after a period of my weight being failry stable, me eating okish and feeling better about eating , people are now saying they are worried about my weight - call it denial or watever, but i really feel there is no need, becuase i DO eat an really dont see any difference to my "apparent chnge in weight"

what i have noticed however, is how freaked i get finding myself thinimg about food all the time, so much so this thnking feels like a reality, and even to the piont i think about it that much, ifeel like i have eaten what im thinking- making me feel so "full" and down.

I mean for years all iv thoguht about is weight / cals/ food etc, but it seems to be increasing right now, yet there isnt anytihng in my life i can think of that mayb has tirgged it off. well nothing worse than my normal life really!

Hmm, really i have such a habit of rambling, i hope this helps to make me less of a stranger.

look forward to chatting and supporting you.

Take Care Of You!!

k xxx

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-06-2005
In reply to: kissyface87
Thu, 05-04-2006 - 12:48pm
 

 

~Diana~

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Registered: 04-27-2006
In reply to: kissyface87
Thu, 05-04-2006 - 1:50pm
Hi! It's nice to meet you. I'm looking forward to getting to know you better!
iVillage Member
Registered: 05-05-2006
In reply to: kissyface87
Fri, 05-05-2006 - 7:39pm

hello there k. just thought i'd say that the below information quoted from erm diana (i think...really sorry if i got that wrong)...is very valuable.

"Anyway, you are you and not your symptoms. Yes, you may have symptoms, but they don't define who you are as an individual deserving of love, & the best for yourself"

i'm sure you are infact beautiful. positive of it!

anyway, however much it feels like there isnt a difference between you and your symptoms, there is. i know that it feels like, after however number of years, that it might just be a part of you, but i guarentee you its not. so yeh ur symptoms dont define you...remember that! the real you is amazing, incredible, i know so just hold onto that and whatever else is important in your life.

you got any goals or anything, anything you want for your future? focus on that. hope peeps here help you. i'm new too btw!! im too impolite to make a "hello this is me" but your post meant a lot to me so....

if you ever are in need, i'm here! but now i should perhaps shut up....

teufel

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-06-2005
In reply to: kissyface87
Mon, 05-08-2006 - 2:08pm

HI there!


I don't think you're impolite at all!

 

 

~Diana~