Battling Bulemia

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Registered: 07-17-2003
Battling Bulemia
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Sun, 05-14-2006 - 1:27am

I'm 19, 140ish pounds 5'7" and I've been bulemic for around 1 month now. It's scary how much I can eat in one night and puke it all back up the next hour. I smoke weed and tobacco, don't excercise, and I have a family history of getting ulcers.

I don't know how I can stop this now, its getting to the point where I think I'm going to die soon, like any day I'll just fall over and die.

This might seem kind of strange to ask but before I get any sort of help does anyone know the safest foods/drinks to binge on?

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Registered: 09-06-2005
In reply to: petzgirl
Sun, 05-14-2006 - 12:43pm

I'm so sorry you are suffering like this (((petszgirl)))


Welcome to the board!


Unfortunately this is not a place to be asking questions about how to stay sick.

 

 

~Diana~

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Registered: 07-17-2003
In reply to: petzgirl
Mon, 05-15-2006 - 3:55am

Exactly why I was planning to not post in the first place >_< I do mean to stop, I honestly think I can since I recently got involved in a relationship and I really do love him, and I am worried about our future and I have told him about it. I know it was trivial to ask such a dumb question in there was a "cleaner" way to go about it, like as in gargling with mouthwash and all, but yeah, I mean I've been using latex gloves everytime I do it to keep my fingers from rotting. My throat is in pain everytime I do it now and I'm worried that it will suddenly rupture on me. And my bathroom smells bad. I have to clean the toilet seat all the time. This is a repulsive and disgusting habit I KNOW, but it just came down to this.

I'm just curious to know what other bulemics have been through and how they deal with it. With me I end up just being around a lot of food and its now become a huge habit for me to inhale food at night, down a soda and puke it up. This is what I do, and its really bad because now I think its becoming a habit, not like a stress reliever but something I need to do. Pretty scary. I'm usually doing quite well during the day I'm never really depressed I think, the body image is stil there and I always see myself as chubby but I think I get over it. Most of my time I spend at home is on the computer which is very close to the kitchen and its impulsive for me to go and binge on something. I'm very bad at being in control with myself. I'm getting a laptop really soon and with this I can stay in my room away from the kitchen and not be tempted to go binge on the day's leftovers. This is my story on being bulemic, and I am going to end it soon, for my family and friends, my loving boyfriend and for my future.

::no flaming plz::

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Registered: 11-16-2001
In reply to: petzgirl
Tue, 05-16-2006 - 3:23am

Hi Petzgirl,


I doubt you'll find anyone flaming you here. This is a very supportive board and we help each other a lot in positive ways.


Do you know why you are so stressed out that you turn to bulimia to cope with your situation? If you can figure out what triggers the need to binge and purge, you can figure out a way to cope in good ways instead of turning to self-harm. You weren't suddenly surrounded by food one month ago. But something happened just prior to that, that pushed you over your limit. It might be one big thing, it might be a series of little things.


You don't have to share with us, but if you decide that you want to, we're here to listen to you.


I hope this finds you well this new week.


All my best,

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Registered: 09-06-2005
In reply to: petzgirl
Tue, 05-16-2006 - 5:14pm

Hi petzgirl,


Thank you

 

 

~Diana~

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Registered: 05-16-2006
In reply to: petzgirl
Tue, 05-16-2006 - 9:55pm
Hi my name is dena and i have battled with anerxia and bulimia since i was 13 and i am now 19 and pregnant. I have been hospitalized three times in the past once when i was 15 at 61 pounds and twice at 17. I was weighing 98 before i was pregnant and now i am 118 pounds at 14 weeks. It is a lifetime battle. Im sure you are strong enough to over come. Its a mind thing for me when your body says you need to eat your starving you want it to be something worth getting fat over like icecream and sweets but instead think of healthy things that you wont regret eating that have protein and iron in them. If you eat a salad instead your less likely to make yourself sick. Also if you feel like your going to fall over try a daily vitamin it will help alot. I would love to have someone to talk to so feel free to email me at denabop19@yahoo.com. Hope that helps