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| Tue, 05-16-2006 - 8:04am |
Do you ever apologize to yourself...
- when you've been particularly harsh towards your own self?
- when you doubted yourself?
- after you beat yourself up?
Do you ever thank your body for being such a patient and strong vessel, for sustaining you through good and bad, happiness and sadness? For being such a good and constant companion?


Oh heck, Poppy, why didn't you just put QOTW at the beginning of that??!!!
~Diana~
LOL... I didn't think of that!
I know that body as a vessel and companion is a loaded question, and I hesitated a lot before posting here. It was inspired by a guided imagery CD I was listening to a few weeks ago, and it struck me that I never thought of thinking of my body like that. Perhaps a new way of thinking about our body might help us in our healing? Just an idea... What does everyone think?
Er... no. But I do have very lively discussions between my selves. It's a bit like the devil and angel discussions in cartoons. Both are arguing with each other, and I'm in the middle, listening. It's interesting.
Yes. And I do try to not doubt myself after that, but I realize that there's a pattern there I have to break.
Funnily, yes. When I'm harsh with myself I don't, but after I've beaten myself up over something, I do. And I'm nice to myself afterwards, too.
Do you ever thank your body for being such a patient and strong vessel, for sustaining you through good and bad, happiness and sadness? For being such a good and constant companion?
Yes, I have, a couple of times. As a survivor of sexual abuse, my body and I have an interesting relationship. There are times I hide it, as though my body were the cause of the abuse. There are times I flaunt it, because I want to celebrate the fact that it's a (relatively) beautiful body. There have been times I've not been nice towards it, when I was battling some problems. Now that I'm older, our relationship is easier. We're more at ease with one another.
Edited to correct typos :-)
Edited 5/17/2006 3:04 am ET by libelulle
Yes, body as our temple ... like it says in the bible.
When I was actively bulimic, I felt so guilty when I would think of this, because at that time,
~Diana~
Typos?
~Diana~
I just realized something the other day: I really don't have a good and objective idea of how I look. Yes, I do realize that to a certain extent, this is a very common experience, going from moderate to extreme (those who have body dysmorphic disorder for example).
This is probably a signal that I ought to hit the yoga mat again on a regular basis. Not that it greatly changes things, but at least it does give me a way to feel at ease with the way I am.
It's much easier to blame everything of women. A lot of men have this virgin/whoe complex embedded somewhere in their brains, and I bet there is a female equivalent or variation
It was best when I was in school.
~Diana~
Do you realize that there's a man out there who doesn't understand why he hasn't found the love of his life, just because he hasn't found you? It's soon gonna be time for you to start going out again. I know, the dating scene is a huge pain in the behind, and I've also been procrastinating (my latest excuse is that since I can't snog due to my braces, I might as well wait until the braces come off. Yes, it has been pointed out to me that it's a very lame excuse).
What I don't want is the casual dating thing. I've done that for the past few years. The last time I was in a serious relationship was 6 years ago (eep! that's a long time!). It took us a year to really break up (sigh), and then I went through a series of casuals and flings because I really didn't want to be in a relationship. Now I'm nearly ready again. It's scary, though. When you love someone you become oh so very vulnerable.
Tell me about your music. I'm really interested in your music. Have you ever composed anything for piano?
Piano is the first thing I wrote for, when I was ten.
~Diana~
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