hey, back again after a long time!

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Registered: 10-15-2004
hey, back again after a long time!
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Tue, 06-06-2006 - 8:54am

Hello...Im sure no one remembers me, it has been a while :o) I was a CL on the vege board a few months ago, then lost my net and so on. Any way, I thought Id come back over here finally. I have really been struggling with my eating recently, and as Im sure you all know, people just cant understand it unless you have went through it, so I am happy to have people to talk to who know what its like :o) I look forward to gettin back in on the convos!

Peace!

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Tue, 06-06-2006 - 10:59am

Welcome back!


Of course I remember you, so good to see you again.


Been kind of slow over here lately, I'm glad to have you here again :)


Hopefully more will show up.


So what's been going on, Emily?


 

 

~Diana~

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Tue, 06-06-2006 - 7:13pm

*possible triggers*

Hi :o) Well this board isnt going any slower than the one I CLed did, hehe. Seems to slow down, then pick up, slow down...ect...

Ive just been being a mommy, watching my baby grow up. I have been struggling with the ED for so long, as well as my depression getting bad (bi-polar, been having WAY to many way down days) I did ok when I was pregnant, and even after having her for a while. Then now that I have gotten pretty small again I just want to keep getting smaller. Its never good enough. I see some one smaller than me and it makes me eat even less. I am pretty dang small now I guess, well under the healthy weight Im told. I have so many people telling me how *too* tiny I look and how I need to eat more, but it just doesnt help. I was in the ER a couple weeks ago because I was getting so dizzy and stuff, even had high bp, which I NEVER have had. I got so babied by the doctor and nurses though, lol, made me feel special, hehe, they where really nice. I was suposed to get in for a follow up apt but am putting it off...sigh...I should really make that call.

ARRR! It drives me crazy. No matter how much I tell myself I need to be healthy and set a good example for Lily...I still just want to get skinnier. I feel like I just want to get smaller and smaller...till I dissapear or something. Not that I want to dissapear, but yeah, lol...

Any way, thats where I am at now

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Thu, 06-08-2006 - 10:29am

Hey, how's it going today, Emily?


 

 

~Diana~

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Thu, 06-08-2006 - 4:38pm

Hi! Not too bad I guess. I havent been obsessing about it so much, but I havent eaten anything either not that I think about it. I ate last night and ate way to much and gave myself a stomach ache, lol, then felt quilty as heck about it, but at least I ate. Ill make sure to eat something this evening, probley when I make Lily food after her nap.

Thanks for asking :o) Hope your day is going well!

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Fri, 06-09-2006 - 9:27am

I give you a lot of credit for taking on the responsibility of raising Lily on your own.

 

 

~Diana~

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Sun, 06-11-2006 - 10:10am

Hi! Glad to hear that day was pretty much good, I hope the others since we talked last where as well :o) I have had a busy couple of days here.

I am still with Lilys dad. Our relationship is kind of rocky though, so I guess I might make it sound like he isnt around sometimes. He isnt at home to help near as much as I would like him to, but I do definatly have it easier that many single moms.

I think I should start some kind of meal plan. I think getting organized would help me out a little. Worth a try any ways :o)

take care, ttys!

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Sun, 06-11-2006 - 12:32pm

Hi Emily,


I was just looking through this thread, & noticed something in

 

 

~Diana~