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| Mon, 06-12-2006 - 10:14pm |
okay so... here it goes.
Im 17 and going into 12th grade. since about 7th grade ive had problems with eating andwhatnit first it was dietring and then not eating at all and then throwing up some months it would be bad others not that bad. im about 5'7 and im not one of those girls that lookm liek they could break inton pieced if you touch them im sadly about 122 pounds so its not like noticeable but i guess its been going on for a while it really got bad in 9th grade i would not eat all day and then after schooll i would binge and.. yeah you problobly get it then once it got to the point where i wasliek coughoing up blood i stopped and went back to just basically starving myself.. but heres where im at now. I recently moved out of state with my family .. about 4 months beofre i moved i got alot better but only because i got into drinking alot and i smoked weed like.. 3 times a day but then i moved and i was alright for a while then i started to not eat and now o ver the past 2 months ive been throwing up everyday i got into metabolism pills really bad andi think i may be abusing them. I have a great boyfirned and hes coming on to all of this hes the only one that knows anyhting and he doesnt even know the half of it and i feel terrible because he doesnt need to put up with this when school was in i was fine because i had that to stop me from eating all the time but now its summer and theres nothing to do or stop me from eating and then i have to get rid of it and lately iuve been getting really sick and weak and my boyfreiends says if i dont try to help my self or let him help me hes gonna leaveme .. i odnt know what to do so if you have any advice plz help me out i cant tell anyone though my mom cant handle this right now and i really dont want to ruin my summer its not like its a huge deal tjhough but i really just wish i could be normal and not have to feel guilty for eating even a piece of bread its horrible when all you ever think of is how you can distract your self from eatitng or when my mom is gonna leave the house so that i can binge.
Please help. Thx
Im 17 and going into 12th grade. since about 7th grade ive had problems with eating andwhatnit first it was dietring and then not eating at all and then throwing up some months it would be bad others not that bad. im about 5'7 and im not one of those girls that lookm liek they could break inton pieced if you touch them im sadly about 122 pounds so its not like noticeable but i guess its been going on for a while it really got bad in 9th grade i would not eat all day and then after schooll i would binge and.. yeah you problobly get it then once it got to the point where i wasliek coughoing up blood i stopped and went back to just basically starving myself.. but heres where im at now. I recently moved out of state with my family .. about 4 months beofre i moved i got alot better but only because i got into drinking alot and i smoked weed like.. 3 times a day but then i moved and i was alright for a while then i started to not eat and now o ver the past 2 months ive been throwing up everyday i got into metabolism pills really bad andi think i may be abusing them. I have a great boyfirned and hes coming on to all of this hes the only one that knows anyhting and he doesnt even know the half of it and i feel terrible because he doesnt need to put up with this when school was in i was fine because i had that to stop me from eating all the time but now its summer and theres nothing to do or stop me from eating and then i have to get rid of it and lately iuve been getting really sick and weak and my boyfreiends says if i dont try to help my self or let him help me hes gonna leaveme .. i odnt know what to do so if you have any advice plz help me out i cant tell anyone though my mom cant handle this right now and i really dont want to ruin my summer its not like its a huge deal tjhough but i really just wish i could be normal and not have to feel guilty for eating even a piece of bread its horrible when all you ever think of is how you can distract your self from eatitng or when my mom is gonna leave the house so that i can binge.
Please help. Thx

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