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| Thu, 06-15-2006 - 10:53pm |
...That I have to eat. This doesn't really surprise me. She said if I don't/can't eat that I have to start drinking ensure. She thinks I maybe have given up on things going on in my life even if it's subconsciously. I haven't lost enough weight for her to be worried. So if I can lose no more than 10 pounds I'll be in good shape. But that depends on my ability to eat. I've got to get past the gag problem because it's gotten to the point where I am fighting strong urges to purge. Tonight I came closer than I have ever been. I think it's scaring me more than tdoc. Of course, she doesn't know of the latest bout. tonight. I don't know, maybe I'm reading too much into this. This whole situation just freaks me out. I'm worried that something serious is going on. My paranoia is taking hold is about all I know.
Thank you for listening.
Maui

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~Diana~
Hi Diana,
My tdoc doesn't operate on a sliding scale per se. She and I have worked out a payment arrangement though. It's just that even with the arrangement we've made I've still fallen way behind and owe her a lot of money.That's why I stopped my visits for the time being. My dd is having a really hard time and needs the t more than me.
I'm just a mess right now and I don't know how to get back to where I need to be. I'm working on just 'being in the moment' and getting out of my head but I don't know what else to do.
Thanks for listening.
Maui
No problem, anytime :)
~Diana~
Yes, I have used the bipolar board before. I guess it's time for time for me to pay them another visit. This feeling of being on the edge is more than I can tolerate right now and I need to get a grip on all of this from the not eating, to the bipolar to the si urges. If I don't do that soon, I'm scared of what might happen.
Anyway, I just wanted to let you know I will pay the ladies at the bipolar board a visit. And thank you again.
Maui
Sure, hope you can find more people for support, and remember, come here anytime, too :)
~Diana~
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