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in relapse
| Fri, 06-23-2006 - 8:26pm |
Hi. I've been in rehab for anorexia for two years. A friend did an intervention on me, and, I sought treatment. Life was going well, but, then, my sister had to have this heart surgery, dad was increasingly clinically depressed, and guys started paying me a lot of attention. That last one really flipped me, I kept worrying if I were thin enough, still beautiful, thoughts of measuring up, to what, I don't even know. I was unaware of these connections, until I felt lightheaded and dizzy today, couldn't finish exercise safely, and realized that it had been a very long time since I'd eaten, there was nothing in the fridge, and I was doing t have a fullblown relapse if I didn't get a handle on things. I went down to the store and got some dinner, just enough for that meal, can't face thought of going shopping. In total food fear right now, but even more afraid of where I'm headed. Next, time to talk to the family, ask for support, doing all the right things. Gonna go sing tonight at the bar, that'll make me feel good about myself. Thanks.
Amie
Amie

Hi there (((((Amie))))) and welcome,
I hope posting helped you get your action plan in gear.
~Diana~