Now this totally scared me (poss trig)

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Registered: 02-19-2005
Now this totally scared me (poss trig)
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Thu, 06-29-2006 - 8:44am

Never in my life have I done this...
Last night as I "pretended" to eat dinner at the computer (you see, Alan was in the living room watching tv, I took a bowl of noodles that Vilija didn't finish and I said that I'd eat that for dinner... took them to the computer room... and after a while came to the kitchen as if I had eaten and just dumped it down the disposal and washed the bowl.)... anyway...
I looked up images on the computer for foods I love. I looked at the pictures as if to "visually TASTE" them... and I was okay with it. I mean, I was looking at these photos of Whoppers... plates of spaghetti... burritos...

OMG. I have sunk a new low.
I'm now officially a bit scared.

I am seeing my therapist this morning at 11:00. I was trying all week to get in earlier with him, but he didn't have any cancellations. Well, yesterday he did, I found a message on my answering machine, he had a cancellation for 1:00. But I was out for most of the day, so it didn't matter. Anyway... I wrote in my journal a lot in the past couple of nights, as you know, so I think I have to take it with me and just read from it to him.

:(

Vida

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Registered: 01-04-2004
Thu, 06-29-2006 - 10:52am

Don't be scared - what would be scarey is if you didn't know that you needed help. Good luck at therapy - I hope it helps

BL