struggling

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Registered: 01-05-2004
struggling
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Thu, 10-12-2006 - 11:56am
hi guys... its been a while since ive been to the message boards, im very glad they have one for ED's. I have been struggling with bulimia for 11 years. it has been a long drawn out nightmare.. its gotten to the point i just dont care anymore, i just wish i would die. i have been in numerous treatments and i have given up hope... can anyone relate?
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Registered: 07-22-2006
In reply to: jayjellobean
Fri, 10-13-2006 - 8:51pm

Hi,

I'm sorry you are struggling and feeling this way. I am pretty new to this board and to ED. I was dx'd in the spring with ED-NOS and my tdoc was going to commit me. I have been struggling to keep myself out of the hospital, for the ED and for the issues surrounding the ED. Although I have not struggled for the time you have and I am anorexic, not bulimic, I understand your frustration. I know exactly how you feel when you say you don't care anymore and you want to die and how you have given up hope. I have been there so many times in my life. If there were only one place in this world that you could be and feel this way, I would see you there. Both my pdoc and tdoc are very aware of how I am feeling right now and neither want to admit me (family obligations would make that pretty difficult) so they are working hard to help me "stay afloat". I have been lurking everywhere I need help in ivillage, and posting when I have the courage. For some reason, your post allowed me to come out of hiding. I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. I understand how you feel. I hope that you do not give up- we are all in this together. If you had the strength and courage to post and reach out that little bit for help, you have the strength to do it again, and again, and again. I hope that you continue to post. Do you have a someone you are working with? If you ever need someone to talk to, please feel free to click on my ID and email me-I'm more than willing to listen and help however I can. Please take care of yourself and know that you are not alone in this battle. You will be ok and make it through...we all will.

HUGS,
Peg

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-06-2005
In reply to: jayjellobean
Mon, 10-16-2006 - 2:24pm

Hi there, jayjellobean and a warm welcome to the ED board.


There is always hope ... no matter how bad you feel, please hang on.

 

 

~Diana~