any help appreciated

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Registered: 09-03-2006
any help appreciated
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Thu, 11-02-2006 - 10:17pm

Hi, I'm new to this board. I have been binging and purging for years(more than 10). At first I didn't do it often, then it became easier and happened more. I also quit for a few years, gained weight again. I am weighing in around 240 pounds. I did so well for a while, even lost weight***by eating right***(I was weighing around 280 pounds). Then all it took was a little stress in my life and there I go. I am out of control. I do not want to do this any more, but I can't control my eating. All I want to do is eat lots and lots of food. I wait for my husband to go to bed, then up it comes.

Does any one have any ideas that may help me. All I want to do is go back to eating better and not binging.

Thanks

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Registered: 07-03-2006
Sat, 11-04-2006 - 11:10pm
I totally understand what you are going through. I have been struggling with Bulimia for 11 years and I'm still stuggling so your not alone. The one thing that makes me a little different then most people who have bulimia is that in my head I have a list of "BAD FOODS" which to most are not bad but everytime I eat these foods sometimes I will over eat but most of the time I won't I will purdge because I feel so guilty that I have eaten these foods and while I purdge I think of all the bad stuff I have going on in my life. It's such a powerful disorder that even with me going to counseling for 4 years now I still feel out of control sometimes feel so lost.
The one thing I want to ask you, Does your husband know that you are struggling with this eating disorder? If not, you really need to tell him. I know he would probably want to know. It's not healthy for you to be going through this alone and believe me when I say that. My family does not know nor will I tell them because they are VERY judgemental but my husbands family knows and him and his mom got me into counseling and this has helped me a lot. I HIGHLY suggest your first tell your husband and then seek professional help. I hope you will do this for yourself because you deserve to live a happy life without an ED.
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Registered: 09-06-2005
Sun, 11-05-2006 - 2:47pm

Hi there (((mamaofchase))) and welcome to the ed board!


Did you know there is a board for compulsive overeating?

 

 

~Diana~

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Registered: 09-03-2006
Mon, 11-06-2006 - 8:03pm

Thanks for sharing with me. I will say that my husband does not know,no one knows. I have never told anyone at all. I know that he would want to be helpful, but I can't tell him. I just want to stop before anyone finds out. I have thought about telling him before, but then I am afraid that he will always be suspecious of what I am doing, even if I'm not doing THAT. We have a great relationship and I am afraid that this may harm it. It is so much easier talking to people that I do not know and do not see them face to face. This is very shameful to me.

After saying all of that, I would like him to know-----if I knew what reaction I would get. We do not keep secrets from each other.

Thanks again.