I've lost control again and need help
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I've lost control again and need help
| Sat, 12-30-2006 - 8:20pm |
After my first semester of college, I thought I had control of my ED. I lost 20 pounds, felt great, happy, and in control. In the past, I’ve struggled with bulimia (after I binged I would purge; I didn’t throw up often but would try fasting and excessive exercise). Although I remained at an average weight, I was very unhappy. I’ve been home from college for three weeks now and completely lost control again. I can’t stop eating. My new pants no longer fit and I feel awful; I’ve honestly put on 15 pounds. I don’t return to college for a week. Anyone have any ideas of what I can do to stop this cycle and get back on track? Thanks!

Holidays are always so tricky for everyone but especially for those with an ED. You need to forgive yourself - what's in the past is in the past. You can't change it but you have a chance at this very moment to do something good for yourself. Sometimes when you are recovering there are times when you can't live day-to-day or even hour-to-hour. There are moments when you're going to have take it moment-by-moment. Don't focus on what you've done wrong, what you don't fit, and how much you gained. Try to look at what you have accomplished. Think about the positive things that has happened. This gives you more confidence in yourself to get and keep yourself on track. If you keep looking at the negative, it only feeds into you ED.
A lot of recovery/treatment plans differ from person to person but think back at what helped you get into that healthy mindset. When I would feel my ED coming in strong, I would try to sit and listen to music. It would calm me down and made me focus on something else other than restricting. Journaling, meditating, reading, etc at moments when you need help sometimes works as well.
Hope that helps!
Catherine
Hello there weightedown and welcome to the ed board!
Guess what, the exact same thing happened to me when I came home from my first semester at college.
When I was away, I discovered a whole new world, where I fit in and had always wanted to be.
~Diana~
I'm glad you could identify with me.
~Diana~