God, I feel disgusting.

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-24-2006
God, I feel disgusting.
2
Mon, 01-01-2007 - 4:55pm

In October, I hit rock-bottom: 5'4" and 95 pounds. I finally decided to seek help through a counsellour, but I HATE how much weight I've gained. I'm up to like...115 pounds, and I feel HUGE. I fit into size 4 jeans, when I used to be a junior's 00/kid's size 16.

Recently, I've started throwing up occasionally. I know it's not going to help me lose the weight, but god, it makes me feel better. I have been starving myself during the day, but then I'm gross and start scarfing food down my gullet at night.

I want to lose a little weight (maybe 10 pounds), but how?! I just don't know what to do...

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-06-2005
Tue, 01-02-2007 - 11:13pm

Hi there,


Unfortunately I can't condone anyone here

 

 

~Diana~

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-21-2007
Wed, 03-21-2007 - 7:41pm

I know how you feel. As of Sunday, I weighed 96 pounds and I am five feet four inches, so I'm about exactly how you were (although, I don't know how old you are and that might make some difference).

Anyways, I'm going through the process of talking to my guidance counselor but I am horrified that my parents will find out about the b/p (I'm hoping he'll forget or something).

But, I basically told him because I knew what I would be doing all summering long; binging and purging. And I didn't want that to happen. So, I understand that I will probably have to gain weight, but I have a future (I want to be a veterinarian) and I have lots of goals in my life and I am going to work as hard as I can to make these work and not put myself in jeopardy.

I wish you luck, as well.