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Am I weird?
| Fri, 01-12-2007 - 1:05am |
I have a very weird eating habit when I'm in restricting mode. I can eat a piece of chocolate and count that as my meal. It's like it curbs the need to eat. When I'm in B/P mode it will send me into a binge. Why doesn't it when I'm restricting? I feel so weird. An anorexic with a sweet tooth?
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While I understand your question, I'd rather keep the discussions recovery oriented, rather than fixate on behaviors and other non recovery issues.
~Diana~
I ended up going to art therapy instead of the adult support group. I don't know if it was the best decision. I really needed to talk, but then again a lot of what is going on with me isn't eating disorder related and I don't like to monopolize the group either.
I'm sorry if you felt my post was going against recovery. I didn't think so. I just don't want to feel so alone in my eating.
Hey Amanda!
Instead of concentrating on what you eat; try to think about your feelings, anxiety, stress, etc. that is occurring in your life at that moment. As we all know, food is just a small aspect of the big picture when it comes down to eating disorders. I know it's so incredibly hard when you are in your eating disorder mind set to try to look at the big picture and also learning to cope with it in a healthy manner. It's a skill in recovery that you have to continually have to work on.
Good luck!
Catherine
Thanks Catherine.
I guess since it's not causing me too much distress then I shouldn't worry about it. It's just that my treatment so far has consisted of me reporting what I eat every week. I know that should probably not be the focus as it feeds the eating disorder too much.
Any suggestions that I can bring to my pdoc about the direction I would like to take in therapy? She is not an eating disorder specialist and I just found out that my family doc didn't send in a referral to the eating disorder program (outpatient) at the hospital. My pdoc can't make the referral. They want it from the physician so that they know that the patient is being monitored physically.
Hey Amanda!
Sorry it's taken me to so long to get back to you. My babies are still sick. Anyways, the best advice I can give you about getting everyone on the same page with your recovery is try to get some kind of communication between all of your medical help. I had to do this. I had to be the communication medium. I would make lots of phone calls and practically be a messenger between people. Sometimes medical staff will drag their feet until some puts a little fire under them to get moving. I really wanted to get treatment so I made sure I was on them until things got done.
HTH!
Catherine
Well I tell both my docs everything so it's not so much a problem but getting the referral is something that my pdoc would like to see and I bet my doc has forgotten again because he's so busy. He does want a letter from my pdoc letting him know where we're at. I don't know if my pdoc is as forgetful as my family doc.
My eating's been a little better the last two days. My friend said something that might resonate true with others I don't know. She said that "you're never going to be sexless and unattractive. You have to accept that you are an attaractive woman no matter what"
Missed my pdoc appt this week now i have to try to get ahold of her to get in this week. Easier said than done.