Help! I think I have anorexia

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Registered: 01-19-2007
Help! I think I have anorexia
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Fri, 01-19-2007 - 12:26am
I'm 19 years old and just started college last fall. I have since had huge issues with how I look and I don't know why. I know that eating disorders run in my family; my aunt, cousin, and 23 year old sister have all dealt with it. But one day I woke up and all I could think about was food and how much of it I was eating. I started to count calories and monitor how much I ate. I would be starving but not let myself eat anything more, however at the beginning of it, I would sometimes let myself binge because I was so hungry, but I have developed very high self control since then. I want to stop thinking about food and go back to being normal and not worrying about it. I have always had a fast metabolism and been skinny so I don't know why this is affecting me, but I feel like I am getting way too skinny and if I go back to eating normally I will put on weight because starving myself could have slowed my metabolism, what do I do? I am too scared to tell anyone in my family about this, I really need some good advice!
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Registered: 09-06-2005
Sat, 01-20-2007 - 10:55am

Hi there, beachbum34.

 

 

~Diana~

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Registered: 01-19-2007
Sat, 01-20-2007 - 2:27pm
thanks Diana! and yes I have tried to talk to my sister about it, that is when I found out that my aunt and cousin suffered from the same thing, because she told me. It happened to both of them around the age they started college too. My aunt is still very concerned with her appearance and she excercises regularly, I've never really watched how she eats, because I never noticed she had a Ed. My sister told me I needed to stop looking at the calorie count of things, but now it is so ingrained in my brain that if I know something has a lot of calories I will not eat it, I feel sick if I even take a bite of it. I think that it must be a nuerological disease because it did literally happen overnight, I've never been concerned about my weight before, and now I am scared I look too skinny but I cant stop. I've tried to research reasons why this might happen and I found out that ed's sometimes occur when someone doesn't want to grow up, so they try to keep the body of a child, which is why I think it happened once I left living with my parents. but I just dont know, I want to wake up and be able to think of something else other than I need to plan what I'm going to eat today...
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Registered: 12-13-2006
Sat, 01-20-2007 - 4:36pm

Hi beachbum34! Welcome to the board!

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