Sigh... need some back up...
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Sigh... need some back up...
| Sat, 01-27-2007 - 6:41pm |
I had not engaged in any ed behavior besides being calorie obsessed so far in 2007. Then today, I purged. I ate too much- not even a binge, just too much and it made me so anxious I threw it up. I didn't need to. I didn't feel sick and the way I ate wasn't unhealthy or weird (binge-like) but I just ate too many calories and freaked out. I am mad at myself for going almost a month w/out purging and now messing that up. What's really sick is that what I am most upset about is that I don't know if I threw EVERYTHING up. I know, I know, that's part of the disorder, but I am more worried that I didn't get it all.
Can some one talk to me? Empathy? Sympahty? Yell at me? Something...
Can some one talk to me? Empathy? Sympahty? Yell at me? Something...

Well, I'm not going to yell at you.
Hi Lily,
I know.
~Diana~