Why can't I just be normal? (poss trig)

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Why can't I just be normal? (poss trig)
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Tue, 02-06-2007 - 1:05pm
Yesterday, I was all upset. See, I'm bipolar, have been having extreme problems with my mood swings the past few days, lots of life stresses, then my dh says "I tune you out often because your stories often hurt my head." So I make myself mashed potatoes for breakfast. As I got my second helping, I decided I would put the rest of it in a container so I wouldn't feel the drive to keep eating until it was painful. This thought was followed by "Why do I have to have this thought, that I might do something wrong, overdo it"

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Tue, 02-06-2007 - 3:18pm

Hi there finian, and welcome to the ed board.


I'm not really sure I understand your question.

 

 

~Diana~

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Tue, 02-06-2007 - 4:16pm

I guess I was thinking, why can't eating just be for substance, like it is for most other people... why do I have to even think about eating right

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Fri, 02-09-2007 - 1:23pm

Ah!

 

 

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Fri, 02-09-2007 - 3:14pm
yes, I'm anorexic, though I haven't had a period of serious self-starvation in about 6 years (dropped to about 15 lbs under healthy for my height & build).
Exactly... it feels so unfair that food isn't just about sustenance to me, that it's all emotional, that I have to think so much about it

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Sat, 02-10-2007 - 11:11am

I understand, & it sounds like the bipolar isn't much help either in that regard.

 

 

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Sat, 02-10-2007 - 12:05pm

unfortunately I've been without health insurance for several years now. When I manage to get back on insurance, I do really want to see a dietician. I'll have to look for one that's understanding of vegetarianism. I'm vegetarian *again* tho trying to do it *right* this time, not use it as a cover for anorexia, as I did as a teen

I mostly work with my husband. He regularly asks me when I last ate, what I ate. And yes, my anorexia and bipolar are kind of a loop, one hurting or helping the other. I'm often glad for little breaks where both seem on an even keel lol

I've been in various treatment programs in the past... nothing for awhile with the insurance-less-ness

I'm about to leave for a vegetarian potluck so that's good :) I'm not feeling the urge to starve myself today... just not liking my choices at home lol

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