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| Fri, 02-23-2007 - 9:23pm |
Hi Ladies! Note there are possible triggers below so dont read any further if you are avoiding them.
I never realized IVillage had a message board for this. I became anorexic/bulimic in college. I would binge and purge but mostly binge and fast. This really messed up my metabolism. I ended up going into binge eating and dropped the purging and gained a massive amount of weight. Then I started taking pills and dropped a lot, then I got pregnant. I did very good when I was pregnant and had a very healthy 9.3lb baby boy 11-28-06. I thought I was "cured" because I went 9mo and never had a food issue or worry. I guess knowing my baby was depending on me changed things.... But now I've been very desperate to lose weight and started Slimfast. I would say I've been taking in about 1500 calories a day and eating very healthy and doing very well until today. I've been doing slimfast for about a week and started having anxieties about food and my weight, kinda like the old days.
I just found myself over the sink eating and spitting. I went through half an angel food cake and afterwards felt SO much better. I never swallowed any of it. I dont want to slip back into my old habits and I'm not sure what I should do. If I hadn't spit I would have just binged on the cake and neither is good. I'm kinda lost here because I've never really talked about any of this but I dont want to get back into old habits. What do you ladies do when you have the strong urge to give in? Can I ever be fixed or will this be a lifelong struggle? It feels like a prison sometimes.
Thanks for listening...






Hi there Christina, and welcome to the board.
First of all I want to thank you for leaving a large space between your introduction and then your post.
~Diana~