New here, possible triggers

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-07-2006
New here, possible triggers
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Fri, 02-23-2007 - 9:23pm

Hi Ladies! Note there are possible triggers below so dont read any further if you are avoiding them.


 


 


 


 


 


 


 


 


 


 


 


 


I never realized IVillage had a message board for this.  I became anorexic/bulimic in college.  I would binge and purge but mostly binge and fast.  This really messed up my metabolism.  I ended up going into binge eating and dropped the purging and gained a massive amount of weight.  Then I started taking pills and dropped a lot, then I got pregnant.  I did very good when I was pregnant and had a very healthy 9.3lb baby boy 11-28-06.  I thought I was "cured" because I went 9mo and never had a food issue or worry. I guess knowing my baby was depending on me changed things....  But now I've been very desperate to lose weight and started Slimfast.  I would say I've been taking in about 1500 calories a day and eating very healthy and doing very well until today.  I've been doing slimfast for about a week and started having anxieties about food and my weight, kinda like the old days. 


I just found myself over the sink eating and spitting.  I went through half an angel food cake and afterwards felt SO much better.  I never swallowed any of it.  I dont want to slip back into my old habits and I'm not sure what I should do.   If I hadn't spit I would have just binged on the cake and neither is good.  I'm kinda lost here because I've never really talked about any of this but I dont want to get back into old habits.  What do you ladies do when you have the strong urge to give in?  Can I ever be fixed or will this be a lifelong struggle?  It feels like a prison sometimes.


Thanks for listening...

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iVillage Member
Registered: 02-24-2007
Sat, 02-24-2007 - 10:31pm
Don't be shocked by your renewed struggle. I have gone as long as a year without an issue related to my eating. Wish I could help but I'm struggling as well.
iVillage Member
Registered: 02-24-2007
Sun, 02-25-2007 - 3:18pm
Clearly what I forgot to tell you is that there is nothing wrong with you. Everyone who has disordered eating has some sort of relapse even if it's just a mental thing. I am going to follow the advice that I am about to give you. Go back to the plan that helped you recover in the first place. Don't give up.
iVillage Member
Registered: 09-06-2005
Fri, 03-02-2007 - 12:10pm

Hi there Christina, and welcome to the board.


First of all I want to thank you for leaving a large space between your introduction and then your post.

 

 

~Diana~