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| Sun, 04-08-2007 - 7:19pm |
Hi, this is my first time on this part of iVillage. I have multiple issues, so I actually have posted once on another issue area. I wonder if other people use iVillage for more than one issue, because I see many categories that apply to me...
Anyways, I don't want to B & P anymore and I have been trying to stop for a while. A long time ago when I started, I don't remember it occuring to me that I would ever have trouble *not* doing it anymore. Well, now I know! I was so proud of myself earlier because I went to the store to buy a bunch of food but decided to leave the store without buying it. But then a couple hours later, I just used food I had at home anyways. Now I feel guilty and regretful and anxious. This sucks! I can do this at home now, but am I ever going to be able to move in together with my boyfriend and not be sneaking around doing this? I don't want to do this anymore.

It might be really really hard but you need to try to go "cold turkey" on the bingeing and purging. All the damage you are doing to your body can be really harmful. Get your life back!
~Alex~
Well if you're doctor knows and you're in therapy that's a huge thing! What type of therapy are you in, idiviual or group? I ask because for me, both worked better then just one. The indiviual helped me work out my "own" issues, and group was really good to not feel alone. We helped each other along the way, and there were other women farther along in progress so it really helped me see that I could be there too.
I'm not too familiar with with bulimia, I was an anorexic. But, I would have to agree with Alex in part. Try going cold turkey, one day at a time. Just think of it as ONLY dealing with today. There's a lot of things in life, including mine, that you can only handle one day at a time. Just deal with today, say to yourself "I'll get through today without B&P". And at the end of the day, give yourself a huge pat on the back for doing it, and worry about tomorrow...tomorrow. I've learned a lot in life, and a big thing I've learned is you can't live in yesterday or tomorrow. Sure, see and learn from yesterday, that's a must, but don't live in it. Don't kick yourself for what you did, if you did something stupid you know you did it, don't beat yourself up over it...just learn something from that and hold onto that alone. And don't worry about tomorrow, make plans, goals, but don't worry. If you focus too much on yesterday or tomorrow, you've completely missed (and possibly messed up) today. Take it one day at a time hun! Get yourself through today, you deal with tomorrow, tomorrow. If you keep up with the steps you're already taking I'm sure that one day you'll be completely recovered. You won't be sneaking around, you'll just be living!
Hi there bluequeen25, and welcome to the ed board!
~Diana~