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| Mon, 04-30-2007 - 1:24am |
So as i've been reading through here, i'm seeing alot of "Do i have an eating disorder?" messages and as i read them it dosent really help me. So I'd like your oponion. Because I want to change.
Well i guess it started over 2 years ago when i went through this whole "Im so fat" phase. I guess i started out slowly because i wanted to see the reactions. and i think i just wanted to hear people make me feel better about myself. But it didnt really work. I guess it made everything worse. So over the years i began to "diet". I started to drink NOTHING but water and i cut back on what i ate. i got to the point where i would eat 2 crackers and i felt like someone was watching me thinking about how much i'm eating and how fat i am.
SO then that turned into another thing where i always feel like people are judging me. like i hate to say " i always think people are talking about me" but i'm not conceded.or atleast i try not to be.
So im about 5'3 and i weigh 112 without clothes. Today i believe it took me untill 12:30 am to eat something because i was high and starving. i check the scale everyday and im super concious about the way i look. people say that im skinny but i dont feel skinner. Im lazy and dont care to much for exercise. the most workout i get is when im working. Im hella crazy that if i weigh 120 i feel like a fat cow.
I guess im tired now so i m not able to tell my 'story' fully. if anyone has any insight i would love to hear it.

If you think that you have an eating disorder; you probally do. Talk to your doctor and see what they have to say. Good luck! I'll be praying for you!
~Alex~
Hi lululola and welcome to the ed board!
I'm so glad you posted.
~Diana~
Hi lululola369! Welcome to the board!
I would just like to echo Alex & Diana's words. Also, the name of our message board is a misnomer. This board covers more than just Anorexia & Bulimia. There are many on this board who have eating disorder that are not otherwise specified.
Here's a link to some info on it: http://messageboards.ivillage.com/n/mb/message.asp?webtag=iv-bheating&msg=13801.1&x=y
And here's a quiz tool: http://emotional.health.ivillage.com/quizzes/eatingdisordersselfesteemquiz.cfm?qid=40
Please, do come by again if you need anything (support, advice, or even just a shoulder to lean on). Take care! Like Diana said, you are not alone.
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You made a very good point about the name of the board, Catherine.
~Diana~