depressed, anxious, borderline, and thin
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depressed, anxious, borderline, and thin
| Sun, 05-13-2007 - 4:14pm |
i need someone to talk to. i am a 27 year old wife and step mother. i suffer from generalized anxiety as well as depression. i also have a borderline personality diagnosis. i have a history of anorexia and methamphetamine abuse (15 months clean!!). i went to see a new psychiatrist in Feb.07, and she put me on effexor. the effexor made me feel "sped up" like i did on meth, and i also had an upset tummy, so i gradually cut my food intake until, 3 months later, i am down over 20 lbs. I am only 5'3", so this is a pretty noticeable loss. i have always been very fixated on my weight-i have a severely distorted body image. the borderline aspect of me got angry that my husband didn't notice that i had lost all of the weight, so i threw a fit and have cut my intake even more. i am off of the effexor, but have developed a panic disorder and am on zolof and xanax. now it hurts my tummy to eat, i feel painfully full after like 4 or 5 bites, i feel hypoglycemic and nauseated in the mornings, and i am not hungry unless i smoke pot first. can anyone sympathize? i just need a friend. no one in my life understands how i feel, and i can't find any good support groups around kansas city.

We try to fill the emptiness in our hearts with worldly things like drugs, starving, stuffing, porn but the only thing that can fill our hearts and make us whole is God.
~Alex~
Hi catwomanckr!
Welcome to the board! First off, congrats on your 15 month sobriety! Good job and keep up the hard work. I don't have experience with zoloft, xanax, etc. There are others on the board that have experience with those medications that will probably help you better than I can.
But I tend to agree with Alex. In times of need and dispair we turn to things that we think will comfort or take away the pain. Eating disorders (ED) are a form of comfort
Hi there catwomanckr and welcome!
First off, congratulations on being 15 months clean.
~Diana~