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Venting
| Tue, 01-23-2007 - 3:09pm |
Hi everyone,
I am just typing because today I am having a hard time. I could not concentrate at work and felt like I just needed to get out of there. The last two days have been difficult because my husband is in so much pain. For those that did not read my post he has metastatic hemangiopericytoma to bones (Ribs and pelvis) from a primary brain tumor. The doctors have not come out and said a prognosis but tumor has grown since last MRI two months ago. They are going to do more radiation to help with the pain. But he is so down and starting to lose hope and it so difficult for me to stay hopeful. We are 27 years old with a one year old and this feels like a nightmare. Financially we are struggling he has not worked in six months and I just got him to apply for disability because he felt like it was giving up...I feel so guilty because sometimes I am so angry that I have no choice but to continue to push through this hell and still work and take care of our daughter. I get angry that there is no rest in sight for me because if I stop working we will end up homeless or something...this seems absolutely unreal...just needed to vent.
lilmooches
I am just typing because today I am having a hard time. I could not concentrate at work and felt like I just needed to get out of there. The last two days have been difficult because my husband is in so much pain. For those that did not read my post he has metastatic hemangiopericytoma to bones (Ribs and pelvis) from a primary brain tumor. The doctors have not come out and said a prognosis but tumor has grown since last MRI two months ago. They are going to do more radiation to help with the pain. But he is so down and starting to lose hope and it so difficult for me to stay hopeful. We are 27 years old with a one year old and this feels like a nightmare. Financially we are struggling he has not worked in six months and I just got him to apply for disability because he felt like it was giving up...I feel so guilty because sometimes I am so angry that I have no choice but to continue to push through this hell and still work and take care of our daughter. I get angry that there is no rest in sight for me because if I stop working we will end up homeless or something...this seems absolutely unreal...just needed to vent.
lilmooches

Hi
I am so glad you were able to find a support group.
You know, sometimes it is just not fair that we have to go through all of this.
I am so sorry to hear about your mom but it makes me feel wonderful to know that you are dealing with it so well. I think very often about being a single mother and whether or not that I can do it and it is inspiring to hear the wonderful respect and love that you have for your mother and her raising you as a single parent. I am trying to click on your link but I can not could you send me your email. Please pray for us and I shall do the same for you and your mother.
lilmooches
Judy
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Thank for for your kind words...