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what do I do?
| Wed, 03-07-2007 - 9:42pm |
My sister is 35 and has stage 3 lung cancer, she has a five year old son.I have been going with her to all of her doctors appointments and taking to get chemo and watching her son. My problem is several.1st one is that I want to go to school for medical billing but I know that I will not be able to devote all my free time to her and her son.At the same time I know that now is the time to do it.When she was first told she had cancer I had just loss my job and was looking into schools, I put that on hold to be there for her.Now my husband wants me to start taking care of myself and go back to school. I feel so guilty for wanting to do it. I feel like no one understands the guilt. I feel like I would be just saying I going back to school you are on your own to deal with it. I know that's not what it says but I don't know how everyone will respond. She says that she understands but at the same time I can see on her face that she is sad about it.Am I wrong for feeling this way? Should I feel this way? How can I please my husband my sister and my mother without hurting anyones feelings or make them feel like they are less important? Any advice would a very greatfull.
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Tammy
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Tammy
Hi Tammy
Oh I am so glad you have worked it out with the school and Mom is willing to help.
I wish that you could talk to her.She has refused to get any papers drawn up. I mentioned to her this week getting a paper in place for when she has surgery so that I can take him to get medical treatment incase of emergency. She went nuts. She said that nothing has happened to him in 5 years and there is no need for it.I told her that I am not saying anything will happen to him but its better to prepared for a emergency then not prepared.She keeps saying he is the most important person in her life and I don't understand then why she has nothing in place to protect him.I talked to my uncle who is a
lung cancer surivor for 5 years now and he said that she is still in denial.I wish that I could get her past this stage so that she can deal with these issues. I know that she needs to do it on her terms not mine but its frustrating at the same time. I love her but sometimes I just want to shake her and say wake up before its to late.I want to say thank you to you for replying to my messages I know that I can ramble on sometimes but its comforting to me to know that someone else has been thru this before.We have the same family doctor and when he told her, he gave her his own attornys phone number and told her that he would call him and let him know that she would be calling.She still has not called and that was in December.Thank you again for reading this I look foward to your reply
Tammy
Hi Tammy
As for sis in denial, sounds she is pushing this off as long as she can.