Scared, overwhelmed, dad +cancer

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Scared, overwhelmed, dad +cancer
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Thu, 09-06-2007 - 10:17am
Hi, i was browsing the net looking for anyone or anywhere where i can find information and support. I'm feeling soooo overwhelmed. My dad has pancreatic cancer, diagnosed in June, they can't operate. When he got the initial diagnosis it seems like my world stopped. I just can't stop thinking about it, and for the first little while spent most of my time in a daze or crying. Now that some time has passed, i'm trying not to think about it but my dad's dramatic weight loss and overall depressed mood is a constant reminder that he has cancer. I've done everything in my power to help out my parents. Cutting the grass, making dinners, just calling and listening but it just doesn't seem like enough to me. I don't know what more i can do to help. I know nothing i do will make this go away, but i'm sooo sad. Dad started his first round of chemo yesterday and he went off to work(he owns his own business)..now i worry about him. He doesn't like to be 'cared' for , but i worry he is going to push himself too far. He looked weak and frail before the chemo, i worry if he even has it in him to make it through it. Mom is worried, and didn't want him to start chemo as he was doing fairly well without it. His appetite was pretty good,and like i mentioned he was carrying on with daily activities. We just don't know what to expect. Is he going to suddenly start to feel horrible due to the chemo or is there a possibility he will feel fine? Dad had a good night sleep, woke in the middle of the night to take his anti nausea med and went back to bed. Ate a fair breakfast and off he went to work. I'm having a hard time falling asleep at night, my mind is racing, and my thoughts throughout the day are consumed with dad. My parents don't want us to tell anyone, adding to my stress because i can't talk about it with friends. Putting on a happy face around them, i feel so phoney. My DH has been great but i feel bad dumping on him all the time. I feel like i'm in a nightmare, i just want to wake up and it all be better. I just needed to vent, so thank you for having a forum here where i can 'let it all out'. Does anyone know of any 'chat's online that focus on pancreatic cancer? I've yet to find any.

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Registered: 10-04-2007
Thu, 10-25-2007 - 9:22pm

Hello and Hugs Suzanne,


I know your feelings well ... life does get put on hold when we are dealing with CANCER.

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Mon, 10-29-2007 - 11:23pm

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Wed, 10-31-2007 - 5:49pm

Hi Philly,


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Sat, 11-03-2007 - 2:31am

Hi Suz


So happy you stopped in with an update.

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