Mom just diagnosed
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| Tue, 10-02-2007 - 4:12pm |
Hi All. I'm 27 years old. I learned on Saturday that my Mom has lymphoma. Its in 3 lymph nodes in her neck. PET scan showed it no where else. She's at the doctor right now with my Dad finding out the results of the partial removal of one of the nodes. Its Stage I. I know her prognosis is pretty good. But I'm scared out of my mind. My stomach hurts, I haven't slept in days. One second I'm ok and the next second I feel like I can't do this. My mother is my world, my best friend. She's everything to me. I almost couldn't even look at her when she told me, and for some reason all I wanted to do was to be away from her? I thought that I was going over to her house on Saturday to go shopping, and I walked in the door to find that she had just had one of her lymph nodes removed the day before. What is wrong with me. Why am I taking this so hard. Her and my Dad are fine, they are acting like its not a big deal at all, sayign that probably all that will happen is 6 weeks of radiation and then this will all be over. What if it comes back? How will I not be scared every second of my life from now on that its going to come back? Every time she coughs or doesnt feel well I will be scared, what if its back. Or what if what she has now doesn't go away? I can't get it together and I know that I have to be positive around her. Shes 59 and healthy. No symptoms, doesn't feel sick or anything. Its my worst nightmare come true. I don't think I could live without her. I can't concentrate on anything. Dad keeps saying, "this is not a death sentence, its highly treatable". But my world fell apart Saturday afternoon. Do these feelings go away? Will I feel better ever? How come I can't just be thankful that its only stage 1 and so many other people get worse diagnosis every day. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. Please help.
Very Scared.

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Oh my gosh this is horrible.
PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSST, did you read my signature?
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