WOW not again...heart breaking

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Registered: 09-06-2007
WOW not again...heart breaking
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Wed, 10-31-2007 - 12:10pm

Hi all my name is Kiki and I have a beautiful 25 year old niece who was diagnosed with a Ewing Sarcoma in her femur in 1991 when she was 9.  She battled hard for 18 months (we almost lost her twice from infection) and she survived.  We have had a few scares along the way but for the most part over the past 10 years all have been good.


She hasn't felt well for a month and she called me last night to tell me that her primary physician has referred her to her oncologist in San Francisco...her appointment is Monday.  She had gone to her parents house to ask how she felt when she was 9 to try to see if what is going on with her is similar.  Her Mom (my sister) freaked out and starting crying.  My niece was upset because she just wants to talk to her Mom without her freaking out. She wants to talk to someone who will listen to her.    I guess that is me...we have always been close and she calls every day when she gets off work to talk.  I don't mind listening to her and NOT freaking out but I am finding that this is so difficult for me.  I have an ex whose son had the same type of cancer when he was 13 and his son passed away in September 2006 at 27 years old.  It has always been so hard knowing this and not sharing it with anyone because no one needs to hear that and especially now.


My niece says she just knows that something is wrong bad.  She just knows....she hasn't gone to her annual update for 3 years since she was in college and didn't have health insurance.  She just knows.......she never talked about it so I know that she is serious on this and not doing it for drama which isn't the way she rolls.  This is real for her and that scares more than anything..........................................to her I have to be brave but in private I want to cry all the time which isn't conducive to working. 


I hope this is a good place to land.  Thanks for reading.


Kiki

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Registered: 09-06-2007
Sat, 11-03-2007 - 12:15pm

Welcome to the board, Kiki.

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Hello Kiki


Oh it is so very difficult to be a Cancer Support Team.

Hope everyone has a great Summer!

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