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Breast cancer
| Sun, 11-11-2007 - 3:40pm |
I'm 36. I always heard and read to have that 1st mammogram at age 40. I was waiting until age 40, because we have no history of breast cancer in my family. We do now. I found the lump (late, we guess it's been there 4-6 months, they're not sure), had the mammogram (ouch!), had the ultrasound, had the ultrasound biopsy (was it supposed to be that painful?), received the telephone call, and now I have breast cancer. I'm terrified. I used to say I wasn't afraid to die, just afraid of the pain of dying, but what a crock that is now. I think of my 9 year old son, my angel, and I am so afraid to die. I want to be hear for him and, selfishly, I don't want another woman raising my boy. On a lighter note, my husband does admit to being Vulcan, so another woman for emotional warmth in the house-not a bad idea. I'm angry at myself for not catching it sooner, I could have. I'm angry at myself for being so afraid of the surgery, chemotherapy, and radiation. I'm angry at myself because I'm not just bucking up for my son, but maybe I will. I've only known for 3 days, 3 long days. We are scheduling my surgery tomorrow. They ask you to come in with a list of questions & I've compiled a long one, but the only question that matters is the one they can't answer... "Will I survive this?" God bless you all.

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