Lost my Dad in June 07

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Registered: 02-11-2008
Lost my Dad in June 07
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Mon, 02-11-2008 - 4:57pm

I'm new here...but I'm finally able to start reaching out. The first week of June of 2007 my dad was diagnosed with Cancer, 3 weeks later he was gone. I live in Arizona and he and my mom lived in New York. I flew back and forth twice before our final visit when we got the call that he had days to live. it broke my heart into a million little pieces. My dad was my best friend and protector my entire life.


We flew in on a Tuesday morning, my parents 37th Wedding Anniversary. The following day was my husband's birthday, and he insisted we all sing happy birthday while he lay there in pain. The next day, he fslipped into a deep sleep and Friday he was gone. My mom and brother had been there with him, watching the baseball game. As soon as his beloved Yankees had won, my dad stopped breathing, and his heart stoppped beating.


I still have great guilt that I wasn't in the room when he left. My mom says that he may not have wanted me to be there to witness it...but that hurts even more.


it all feels like a dream...and EVERY SINGLE DAY I think to pick up the hpone and call him. And it's like he dies over and over again as I remember he won't be at the other end of the line.


My mom announced she's moving to Texas, where my brother and his wife lives. I was freaked out at first to know that not only is my dad gone, but mom won't be in that house anymore.


I know I'm rambling, but I'm just kinda of in a dark spot right now. Any words of wisdom, advice or consolation are much appreciated. Too many people have no idea what this feels like.

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Registered: 10-16-2007
Mon, 02-11-2008 - 10:11pm

I'm so sorry that you lost your dad. Mine just got sick and I can't imagine a day without him. I also grew up next door to my grandparents and when my grandpa died my grandma sold the house.

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Registered: 09-06-2007
Wed, 02-13-2008 - 10:57pm

Welcome to the board.

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Registered: 02-17-2008
Sun, 02-17-2008 - 4:44pm

I am sorry to hear about your loss but am glad you now feel you can talk about it.