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| Sat, 05-17-2008 - 11:57am |
I am feeling so guilty right now. Let me explain what has led up to the problem before I get into the actual problem...
My fiance was diagnosed with Barretts esophagus in Jan 06. Well Feb of this year they found it had advanced to esophageal cancer. He had the surgery done on Mar 26th to remove the T1 cancer tumor. The good news - it looks like they might have gotten it all in time. However there were complications after the surgery: Intubation, infections and he ended up in Critical care for almost 5 weeks. A reg room for about 1 week and now is in a LTAC facility. During the critical care he was medically sedated because of bad anxiety and how ill he was. I was there every day basically all day.
I have been becoming more and more depressed. Seems that my depression has deepened since he is awake and actually getting better. I stayed strong when things were looking bad. I am feeling so worn out but I want to be there for him. It just seems every day its getting harder and harder to force myself to go to the LTAC. Its not that I don't want to be there for him - I DO. Its just the depression I think.
This has me feeling guilty because he is the one who has gone thru SO much and he needs me. I don't want to hurt him by telling him I am not coming one day. He cant skip being there a day...

just hang in there.I know how hard this is for you,i"ve been there my self.but you must fine time for you.weather it be coming home after a long day and watching
Welcome to the board.
My dad was just diagnosed with esophageal cancer, we are told his is stage 2, i think that means that it has not gone to any surrounding tissue. We are going Thursday to have an ultra-sound, so the doctors can decide if surgery is an option or if he should do chemo before surgery. I am very nervous about the surgery, I have read alot that really scares me. We have heard so many different things from doctors, some suggest surgery, others say chemo. What was your situation?
This is just all so new to me, and I know it's very scary to my dad also. My brother and I are trying to keep him very positive about everything.
Any information you can share would be very appreciated.
My prayers are with you...
My fiance was told during his initial consultation with the cancer specialist that T2 might require some chemo but chances are still good as long as there is no lymph node involvement
Thank you for your replies.
I have been taking it day by day
You sound as if you are doing
Yes, I am taking it day by day.