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| Mon, 09-22-2008 - 7:49pm |
I have been here before but has been long time. My step dad had lymphone awhile ago. He beat it and was fine. We found out the other day that is back. He went the dr's today and the was told that is it worse then before. My mom called me and told me this when they was still that the dr's. My stepdad was in the office and my mom went outside to call me and tell me. She also told me that he will be going into the hosptial once a month for three days. But before he goes the hosptial he will go the dr's for 4 hours of chemo. Then to the hosptial for something else. It is in IV. I can't remember if it is more Chemo or Radation.
My mom is not dealing with this well at all. But that is to be except. I told her to call me when every she needs too. I don't care what time or day or night. My mom asked me call my sister and bothers. I called my one bother and I wanted to knock him out. He was rude and didn't care. He was mad because he was not allowed to move in with them. My stepdad and him fight alot. So that would not be a good thing. I then called sister. And she just complained about the fact at my mom didn't take someones else with them to the dr. I told her my oldest son went (he lives with them and drives.) She said that someone smarter should have gone with them to listen and understand what the dr said.
I have no one to vent to cause my husband says that if I cry or get upset that I am not handling it like my sister does. She said he doesn't cry or nothing. She just lets the dr's take care of it. I could tell you that story but I am not going to bore you. So now I am not allow to cry in front of him. I am sitting here now just wanting someone to hold me when so I can cry but I know that it will not happen. I am just ready to scream and not sure just how to handle all this without crying. But I have to find away. Or at least cry when he is at work.
I am not really even sure why I came to this board but I just needed at place to go and let it out for few. And I picked this board.
I better go and get my son in the tub and clean house. Thanks for letting me vent and sorry for misspelled words
Regina

Regina, it's always fine to come here and let it all out.
When I was young I lost a baby. Those where the days of Jackie O when a woman was suppose to be strong for the world. And then I acted real strong I didn't do any