How to come to terms with weaning?
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|Tue, 04-29-2008 - 9:18pm|
My daughter is 6.5 months old and I've been EPing since she was 2 weeks old (after unsuccessful attempts to BF due to a lazy suck, jaundice, etc and meeting with 3 different LCs-- I was at my wits end and pumping seemed like a good temporary solution. For various reasons, it ended up becoming permanent). At 2 months, DH became unsupportive of the pumping (actually admitted he wanted me to stop-- I knew he wasn't excited about it pretty much from the beginning because of the time, inconvenience, etc). We argued about it a lot at that point and the bottom line was that I wasn't ready to stop.
Six months was one of my goals, and then I was going to re-evaluate. Last week (right after 6 months) I came down with mastitis. It was horrible timing, when we had family in town and I was about to cook dinner for everyone but instead had to go to urgent care. At this point I realized that I couldn't carry on with pumping a couple of hours per day-- I am just too tired. Dh and my family really pressured me to stop, and I agreed that it was a good time (after the infection cleared). At DD's 6 month appointment last week, I told the pedi I wanted to stop and she said it was fine, not to feel guilty, etc.
I had only been pumping twice per day so I couldn't really wean gradually. Last week I started using cabbage leaves and sudafed and only pumping 1 time per day for comfort. After a few days the once a day pump wasn't even really necessary for comfort, but I have continued doing it. I got really depressed about the thought of stopping even though I thought I was ready-- it just seemed so sudden to go from supplying almost all of DD's food to none at all (I really don't have a freezer stash at all because DD refuses to drink the frozen milk-- I have thrown out hundreds of ounces over the past few months because of this). I started to think that I could keep the once per day pump for as long as I still have some milk-- this really has helped me come to terms with weaning. I am currently getting about 8 oz from my once per day 30 min pump. I don't feel full throughout the day, I'm definitely not engorged, etc. For the first time I am able to sleep without a bra.
Is it really silly to continue pumping once per day? DH really doesn't understand my emotional state about all of this and he's worried that I will get mastitis again. I know that my supply probably won't keep up and that's okay-- it's just buying some time for my emotional state to come to terms with weaning. Does this make sense? Does anyone have any advice?