can't do it anymore
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|Tue, 12-16-2008 - 11:41am|
So, I am almost at eight months, but I am at my wits end. I cannot do it anymore. DS is eating lots of solids, and I do not like giving him formula, but this pumping is really affecting me negatively. I feel like a cranky b***h all of the time, I can't nap when my DS naps and he's up 3 times a night to eat /play, and I am just exhausted. I never used to get sick, and I've had a stomach virus and two colds, and each time my supply sucks. I am like at 12 oz a day, with dom. Some days, I felt like "I can do this" and others I just want to throw in the towel. I am still depressed my LO won't BF, I don't talk about it much, but we have been trying still this whole time. He sleeps with us, and I let him have my boob as much as he wants all night, and all morning before I go to work, and he has it for naps on the 4 days I don't work, and he still hasn't gotten it.
So, last night as I was about to pump before bed, DH was like "again?" and I was just like forget it. I was so freaking exhausted, I was just done, so I went to bed w/ out pumping, and my boobs killed me this morning! I have really mixed emotions. 1/2 of me is done, 1/2 isn't so I am just going to pump a little when it really is bothering me untill I am done. Maybe I'll pump once or twice a day untill I don't want to do that anymore. I think if I go cold turkey I'll regeret it. I've pumped allready twice today, so I may chnage my mind, I don't know. I just needed to get this out. Thanks for listening!