I am a wreck please help!
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I am a wreck please help!
| Wed, 06-25-2008 - 12:07am |
I have read a lot and learned very much from this board but never posted. But I could really use some help. I just thawed out my last 3 bags of frozen and that's it then my 5 month old is completely on formula and I feel terrible. I have cried a lot tonight. I thought I was ok with my decision but now I am second guessing it but it is too late now.
I was in your shoes a few months ago. My mother past away in March when my son was 3 months old. It affected my milk supply. I couldn't pump more than a couple of ounces a day. After the frozen stash was gone, I had to put him on formula. I felt soooo bad. But the fact is, I had to do what worked. I didn't have the milk nor the time to actively increase my supply because of all that was going on. I gave him what I could for the first 3 months of his life and I still try to give him the little I have, but I had to come to grips with the fact that my love for him was beyond milk. I know it is hard, but you love your child and you are doing what is best for your family as a whole, which is ultimately best for baby.
Pumping or hand expressing "to comfort" won't hurt anything - just do it enough to relieve the pain. You can feed your DS that milk. And, you can continue to wean...cold turkey is never a good idea...slow weaning is more comfortable for mom....and it gives you options if you change your mind.
You shouldn't feel guilty - you've done a great job. But, if you do want to pump again, it probably is not too late at all.
Good luck!
Amy
Jullie
I am so sorry you feel that way. It is perfectly natural.
-Lax
"Life is what happens, while you are busy making plans."
~ John Lennon ~