Dealing with loss of control issues
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|Mon, 04-16-2007 - 11:09am|
I have a 6 week old son born march 2nd. I've been posting on here off and on and lurking a bit. I wonder how you guys deal with the loss of control that comes with a new baby.
I changed my DS' diaper this morning to find a bright red rash around his little anus. It wasn't there yesterday...it literally happened overnight. So around 9:30 this morning I tried to change his diaper, clean him up and put butt paste on him.
He shrieked bloody murder the whole time and clenched his little cheeks together, making it hard to clean him and apply the paste. When I finally did, he'd leak a little bit of stool so I'd have to do it all over it again.
This cycle went on for a 1/2 hour! I slowly disintegrated into a crying mess myself, mostly b/c I felt like I was torturing him but felt compelled to leave him with a clean, well-pasted bottom and diaper.
He finally stopped leaking and shrieking and allowed me to diaper and swaddle him. Afterwards I nursed him and he is now sleeping, but I am still somewhat of a wreck. The loss of control that comes with dealing with him scares me. I have no way of knowing whether a diapering session will last 1 minute or 30! And I hate to see and hear him cry so and know I am the cause.
Do you guys ever feel like this, and how do you deal with it? Not just about diapering but about baby care in general. Thanks for letting me vent. :)