Feeling So Very Sluggish/Need to Vent

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Registered: 05-19-2003
Feeling So Very Sluggish/Need to Vent
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Thu, 01-29-2004 - 11:59pm
Hello,

Just need to vent. Having a really bad time of it the past couple days. I was feeling pretty well, and been drinking the water down, steering clear of sweets and cookies, having no coffee or pop, and taking a vitamin per day, not to mention eating good, but the past couple days my emotions and mood has just hit the basement. My period is pretty much over now, so I should be feeling pretty good. This is when I get really creative and wanting to get things done, and my mood is higher. But I just feel like crying. So I don't think it has anything to do with hormones now, just the depression rearing its ugly head again. I hate it.

I have to wait 3 more days before I can get out and look into getting a 'glucose testing meter' for myself, to see what is going on with my blood sugar levels, and at least make a start as to if I might be diabetic or not. That way if the levels are really off, then I know to go to the ER or somewhere and get tested. I have to start in small steps here, its just the way I have to do things now. I can't go full force into anything at this time.

The weather is so frigid, in the low teens and in the single digits at night. And we got about 4 more inches of snow on top of the already 2 to 3 inches we had on the ground already. I am hoping by this coming Monday, when I have to go out and get a few errands done, that the weather improves, but probably not, since the weathercasters are predicting more snow on Monday and Tuesday! Grrrrr!

I just feel so very trapped in here, and that is not helping things. I have no car now, since it is totally out of commission, so I have to walk in this frigid weather if I'd want to go anywhere, so I opt to stay in as much as possible. Being so very thin as I am, I just feel the cold terribly, not to mention not up to walking great distances thanks to the underweight issue too.

Now I am just starving and craving some sweets but I won't give in to it, I will eat something healthy, I can promise that. I can tell something is wrong, and I need to eat, since now I feel hot all over, my head just plain aches, and I have that horrible metalic taste in my mouth! I hate that!

My friend said he'd be on the other night to chat, then never showed, and I sure miss his and my chats, as he surely knows how to lift my spirits. But I won't be upset with him, since he is a very busy man.

I just feel so tired, and only been up since around 4pm. Yes, I am still sleeping quite a lot. This tiredness now just shouldn't be. I did exercise a while after I got up today, to get my body moving, and that felt good, and then ate a good dinner. But now I am just totally sluggish and also feel worn down emotionally. It is like I can't take one more bit of bad news or upsetment. I feel like I have had enough. I have been fighting and scratching and clawing my way through the past 2 years, and I guess I am just plain exhausted. But I will take it easy the next 3 days, and try to get my strength up for Monday when I must go out and get things done.

I will let you all know if I get the glucose testing meter for myself. I will have a lot of questions if I do, and will ask away when I get the chance.

Thanks for listening. Helped to vent. I better go get some food now, so I can start feeling a bit better soon. Ugh, my blood sugar level must really be crashing it seems.

((((((Hugs)))))))))

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Fri, 01-30-2004 - 6:32am

I am so sorry to hear that your feeling so down about things. How ever

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