REALLY need to talk/Had a lousy weekend.
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| Mon, 02-02-2004 - 1:40am |
I will print out the list of symptoms tonight, and bring those with me tomorrow to the hospital. That way I won't get too nervous, trying to explain how I have been feeling. I weighed myself earlier, and I am up to 105, so I haven't lost any weight, thankfully. But wow, I just can't stand this aweful feeling I am having now. It is like my head is pounding, my whole body aches, and I feel like throwing up. I am scared. I pray this is not something really and truely serious.
I hate that this had to happen on my friend's birthday, which is tomorrow (Feb. 2nd) and I had to be writing and telling him this, but I guess one of the best presents I could give him, is to go get checked out at the hospital. He is the one that is diabetic and been on me like crazy to go get checked out.
All weekend I have felt so trapped, scared, and like I couldn't breathe, and I think some of that is just from fear and anxiety, so I have to stay as calm as possible. At times I was just in the recliner for hours, unable to just move to do anything! That is just not the way I am! I mean this time around, I have no motivation or energy whatsoever! I want to just sleep, and sleep, and then sleep some more!
I am off now. I need to get some Jell-O or something to get down in me, to hopefully help me feel better. This faint and odd feeling is too scary for me.
I hope that this all turns out to just be stress and depression, and nothing is seriously wrong with me.
Please pray for me. I need all of the prayers I can get right now.

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