how my day went depressing.. depressed..

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Registered: 09-05-2003
how my day went depressing.. depressed..
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Tue, 07-13-2004 - 3:08am
Hey Everyone,

Today has not been a good day.. around 11 it really started going down mentally.. I was so depressed it wasnt funny.. I did make it to that diebetes class .. and it was okay. I learned about the numbers.. and what they should be.. learned about diabetics type one and type two.. I learned that being overweight is one of the factors.. but that is not the only factor.. but I am going to lose weight heck its going to help alot of areas even the sugar.. but I will always have to watch what I eat.. when I eat how often I need to test a daily log.. on and on.. and its like today.. I left thinking I dont wont to do this for the rest of my life.. .. I just dont see how I am suppose to do this.. I just need to climb up this tunnel I am in right now an its so hard to fight.. but like always I will make it and climb out of that tunnel.. That is not to mention the extra stress I have financially with this.. When you dont have insurance or medicad or medicare you are basically screwed with this illness.. its a constant battle where will I get the money for these STRIPS>. where will I get the money for this MEDICINE two well I am suppose to take four.. so all this extra stress.. of worrying about how I am suppose to do this not only physically mentally but also financially..

I have been sick with 5 lesions , and I also have a urinary or kidney infection right now.. do I have medicine for that NO.. why ?? Because I cant afford to go and pick up the medicine.. and its like okay.. so ask the doctor's office if they have any samples for this.. well no they dont... so here I am basicailly screwed and hurting .. thank goodness I do have some antibiotics that I found in the cabinet that I can take.. that were samples and I Looked it up and its for a urinary tract or kidney infection..soooo because of all of this I have missed work today and I am going to miss tomorrow.. I just dont see that I am physically mentally ready to go back to work.. I went the past two weeks every day.. well other than my days off.. and I just cant go anymore.. something has to give and its me not going to work or something drastically happening.. and right now my mental state is just as important as my physical state.. I am just a mess right now.. way depressed if I get to down I just talked to my counselor and asked her if there is a crises line I can call in the middle of the night if I just need to hear a voice and if I have to do that I am.. I just wanted yall to know how my day has been.. I checked my sugar at the class today and it was 95.. I havent eaten hardly anything today at all.. had this morning for breakfast.. two graham crackers and peanut butter.. and then I had 6 tiny bite ritz cheese crackers.. and I had to granola bars.. and nothing else just not in the mood to eat.. bye for now group.. Melody

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Registered: 01-06-2001
Tue, 07-13-2004 - 3:45pm
Hi

I know your depressed, I was at first too, I blamed myself for a lot of it. You just need to pick yourself up and get on with life. Dealing with this diseaseisnt' as bad as you think. Sure you ahve to eat better, and watch what you eat...but we all should be doing that anyway. I found a website for you to see if you can get free supplies and meds. I would think since you have no insurance you would qualify. http://www.freemedicineprogram.com/ Check it out. You can do this:) Oh and youcan lose the weight also. IN the past 14 months I have lost 108lbs. Heck if Ican do it you can!!!

Lynn

 

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Wed, 07-14-2004 - 1:50am

I have been where you are in the financial area. If I was you check with your local Social Health department to see if they offer a program that cost only so much a month for insurance coverage, which the amount you pay each month for insurance is based solely on your monthly income and numer of house hold members. I found this out and did use that for a while so that I was no so financially strapped down. Just thought you might like to know about it especially if it helps you out some.


I know it is depressing and very stressful trying to figure out how to afford everything to take care of yourself. Just know that your not alone at all since many of us have gone through this or are going through this. You will make it through this just fine, but it will be tight living in the way of money until you get insurance if at all possible to do so. Just try to do your best since that is all any of us can do. Maybe right out a budget to see how it looks and see how you can cut some costs since I know this really did help me out to see it

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