post-traumatic after resection (CD)
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| Thu, 01-19-2006 - 6:46am |
I think I have been traumatised from having a bowel resection due to crohn's. You would think its a joke except Im serious :) This time last year I went from bad to worse with my health and I ended up in hospital. I thought I would be there 4 or 5 days for antibiotics but I ended up being there almost 2 months. Noone could decide what to do, since the surgeon wanted to me to stay with medical treatment and my gastro wanted me to have surgery now and get over it. The surgeon couldnt tell me if I would have a stoma, either temporarily, permanent or at all, and I didnt know until I woke up from surgery that I didnt get a stoma at all. The whole process was humiliating (catheters and other sutff), upsetting (the huge scar in the middle of my stomach from my belly button which is now all messed up to my public bone) and tiring.
I put on almost 60 pounds in the last year of which I have lost about 15 so far. Even now if I think about it I could cry. I would give up a breast before I would get a stoma. I just dont know how to get past it. The fear of CD returning is enormous and I cant get over it.
I just wanted to say that. I think a lot of these feelings are being stirred up because I am now trying to lose the weight. My gastro told me a I had to and he was a real jerk about it lecturing me about "making it a priority" etc like its not pain enough to live inside this body. Im not slow - I know what I need to do and how to do it but I think he sees it as a purely exercise and food issue. He really hurt me and I used to like him before.
Anyway I just wanted to get that off my chest and see if anyone has been through this.

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