afraid to hope anymore

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Registered: 10-07-2007
afraid to hope anymore
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Sun, 10-07-2007 - 1:59am
I am a new member on here. I have come and read the posts of few times but never felt compelled to post anything until tonight. I am not sure what I am looking for ....I feel very weary after 2 years of TTC. (We have tried many alternative therapies and now are on the second Clomid ride) Today has been a particularly sad day for me. I do get support from friends and my husband but there are times when no one can truly understand unless they are going through it too. I need a little boost from women who know the pain. I have been through some really tough times in life but this is kicking my ass! I am trying to gather the strength to do another month of this...after so many months.. I find myself saying I don't know how much more I can handle. Any words of comfort, wisdom or anything would be really appreciated. Thank you for listening.

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Registered: 10-01-2007
Sun, 10-07-2007 - 4:44am

Hello!

YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!! I am new here, too, my name is Kim. I know exactly how you feel. Month after month, it's so disappointing and it's so hard to gear up for another month of the same! It's just so unfair. It's exhausting, stressful, and depressing. How do women deal with this?! I have found that by just reaching out on this message board and receiving some kind words has helped. I cry when I need to, have a glass (or 2) of red wine when I need to, or just stay home from work under the covers all day when I need to. Respect yourself, and realize how tiring this is on your body, mind & spirit. I have tried to busy myself with other interests, to take my mind off making a baby. I want to stay hopeful, but those seeds of doubt still figure out a way to creep in. It is definitely a roller coaster ride of emotions.

So I am on my first round of Clomid. Do you feel any different on it? I can't really tell so far.

Feel free to write anytime, it's nice to "talk."

You'll feel better tomorrow. There are lots of ears & big hearts out there. Hang in there!
Kim

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Registered: 10-01-2007
Mon, 10-08-2007 - 8:33pm

Hi,


I know it seems like it's never going to happen and you probably heard this before.

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Registered: 10-01-2007
Mon, 10-08-2007 - 8:48pm

I totally understand!

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Registered: 08-10-2007
Tue, 10-09-2007 - 10:20pm

Hi, just wanted to chime in that you are definitely not alone! I feel the same way...tired of living through this, not knowing how I'm going to live through the next year/month/week/day/hour/minute.

Remembering o

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Registered: 08-29-1999
Wed, 10-10-2007 - 3:51am

You are not alone.

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Registered: 10-07-2007
Wed, 10-10-2007 - 10:51pm
thank you... I found your reply so comforting.. it just made me cry with compassion for both of us and all the other women out there going through the same. It really helps to just hear from other women who really know what its like. I am feeling better since I posted on Saturday. I just started taking the 2nd round of Clomid yesterday. Last time I was on CLomid I got horrible headaches but this time I haven't had any yet. It has helped for me to take them at bed time. How is Clomid going for you?
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Registered: 10-07-2007
Wed, 10-10-2007 - 10:58pm

Your support means a lot to me. We found out that we both have issues... I have PCOS and my husband has low motility and abnormal morphology...so basically I don't ovulate very often and his little ones are slow and shaped funny. It helps to laugh about it sometimes. We just stared going to a fertility clinic and the Doctor says he has seen people in our situation get pregnant.. so there is hope.

Thanks again. How far a long are you or do you already have your baby?

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Registered: 10-07-2007
Wed, 10-10-2007 - 11:05pm

Hi-
thanks for your suggestions. I do need to protect myself a bit more... there are so many people I know right now having babies.... I think I need a break from baby stuff for a while. I notice that a nice hot bath and some comfort food and a good long cry usually helps.. but man in the middle of it I am pretty convinced its never going to get better.

Is IUI the same as Artifical Insemination?

The question I have been asking myself lately.. is How do I know when I am done TTC? What do you feel about that for yourself?

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Registered: 10-01-2007
Thu, 10-11-2007 - 5:31pm

Hi,


I am almost 7 months. Well don't give up. That's really great news. I am sure the doctor wouldn't tell you that to get your hopes up.

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Registered: 09-11-2006
Sat, 10-13-2007 - 10:10am

(((Jennifer)))


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Hello and Welcome,


I'm so sorry that it has taken me so long to get here.

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