Turning into a witch
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| Tue, 03-25-2008 - 3:38pm |
I feel so bottled up these days. My husband and I have been trying for over a year and nothing. My doctor has referred us to RE. I feel so mad/sad/ jealous….I can’t believe we have to go see an RE. (I guess I should be thankful that we have such technology available)…but still all my friends are popping out babies left and right.
Not to mention one of my husband’s friends made it into a race…At first he thought that I was lying about being pregnant. Anyways I have been avoiding him since. (I feel guilty because he and his wife had a baby girl in February.)
It’s difficult for me to hear advice from friends who don’t know what I am going through. Last night a friend told us that we just need to relax. (It’s easy for him to say when his wife got pregnant on the first month.) I know he meant well but still....
It's weird because one day I'll be fine and next day i am angry, mad, sad....
My poor husband has to deal with my mood swing.
I feel guilty for not wanting to go to baby showers, birthday parties, family gathers, etc.
I feel like i am turning more green everyday.

Don't feel guilty for "bowing-out" on baby showers and such. It took me a while for me to gather enough strength to go to parties and would be genuiely be happy for the mommy-to-be's. The feelings
I'm totally with you, Salty.
I will have normal days and then other days when I'm overcome with every bad emotion in the book. Try to do things that give you pleasure. I have been walking home through the park every day, reading a great book, watching netflix films, cooking yummy meals, and giving 110% to a job that I do love. The hardest thing is being around young parents and I'm trying to avoid all mentions of pregnancies as well. Hang around people who are not parents. I know it's hard, and believe me, I break down A LOT. Just know that you are not alone and you can write to me anytime.
Best wishes,
Caren (wifeofalex)
It’s so nice to talk to people who understand me. It’s such a relief.
Thank you both for your kind words. It means A LOT!!!!
This website has helped me so much. Reading other people’s stories has made me stronger. BTW, a friend came for lunch the other day and told me that her sister is pregnant with her 3rd child. Instead of feeling angry/ jealous…I was okay.
I know that feelings come and go and sometimes I can’t choose the way I feel…
Thanx again for listening!!!!
Hello and Welcome!
I agree with Julie, banish the guilt!