almost like saying it out loud

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Registered: 03-27-2008
almost like saying it out loud
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Sat, 03-29-2008 - 7:45pm

Ok. Here it is.  I just need somewhere to spread my thoughts in to the universe.  This is so hard.  We went to the doc. Thursday and now know that our best shot is IVF.     I am 28 and the doc say oh, you are so young so we can take our time.  I don't agree.  It seems like every day I get a phone call, email or told that someone I know is pregnant.  My closest friend just had her first baby and I don't think I have said more than regular small talk to her since.  It is all I can do to not bust into tears when I see her and her beautiful baby.  This is how I am around all my friends who have kids.  So I really haven't talked about any of this with anyone.  I think that is the hardest part.  I miss them.  I don't feel like there is anything to talk about now that I don't have anything in common with them anymore.  My mom is the only one I have cried to about this besides my husband and she is great but also doesn't know what to say to me.  She say stay positive, which is what I try to do but this dark cloud is above me all the time.  It is crazy how it hits me at any moment.  I can be fine all day at work and then get in the car and hear a stupid song (could there be more songs about having babies right now?) and then I just lose it.  Then I get home and my husband is like, what wrong?  I know he is upset too but I also know he doesn't think about this nearly as much as me. 


So, I guess I don't really have any questions or really expect a response from anyone, but if anyone else has ever felt this way or had these thoughts I would love to know. 


 

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Registered: 03-28-2008
Sun, 03-30-2008 - 12:17pm

Your feelings to me sound normal and am pretty sure that they are shared by most.


I agree with you that I can be doing fine all day, even though I think about it all the time, and then all of a sudden start crying. I guess its just our way of releasing all of our pent up emotions....frustration, anger, jealousy, sadness, scared etc.


My husband and I are new to all of this also, but I find it interesting that your MD said that you could take your time. Don't they realize that we have already put a lot of time into conceiving already! Just what we want......to wait longer.


Katie

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Registered: 03-27-2008
Sun, 03-30-2008 - 7:32pm

Katie,


Thank you for making me feel less alone in all this.

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Registered: 01-21-2008
Sun, 03-30-2008 - 8:00pm

I just read your post and I could not agree with you more!

 

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Registered: 03-08-2008
Sun, 03-30-2008 - 8:59pm

Amen!

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Registered: 09-11-2006
Mon, 03-31-2008 - 8:00pm

(((laurah2o)))


I'm so sorry.

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Registered: 03-27-2008
Wed, 04-02-2008 - 3:18pm

Ivy,


That was great.