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| Sat, 03-29-2008 - 7:45pm |
Ok. Here it is. I just need somewhere to spread my thoughts in to the universe. This is so hard. We went to the doc. Thursday and now know that our best shot is IVF. I am 28 and the doc say oh, you are so young so we can take our time. I don't agree. It seems like every day I get a phone call, email or told that someone I know is pregnant. My closest friend just had her first baby and I don't think I have said more than regular small talk to her since. It is all I can do to not bust into tears when I see her and her beautiful baby. This is how I am around all my friends who have kids. So I really haven't talked about any of this with anyone. I think that is the hardest part. I miss them. I don't feel like there is anything to talk about now that I don't have anything in common with them anymore. My mom is the only one I have cried to about this besides my husband and she is great but also doesn't know what to say to me. She say stay positive, which is what I try to do but this dark cloud is above me all the time. It is crazy how it hits me at any moment. I can be fine all day at work and then get in the car and hear a stupid song (could there be more songs about having babies right now?) and then I just lose it. Then I get home and my husband is like, what wrong? I know he is upset too but I also know he doesn't think about this nearly as much as me.
So, I guess I don't really have any questions or really expect a response from anyone, but if anyone else has ever felt this way or had these thoughts I would love to know.

Your feelings to me sound normal and am pretty sure that they are shared by most.
I agree with you that I can be doing fine all day, even though I think about it all the time, and then all of a sudden start crying. I guess its just our way of releasing all of our pent up emotions....frustration, anger, jealousy, sadness, scared etc.
My husband and I are new to all of this also, but I find it interesting that your MD said that you could take your time. Don't they realize that we have already put a lot of time into conceiving already! Just what we want......to wait longer.
Katie
Katie,
Thank you for making me feel less alone in all this.
I just read your post and I could not agree with you more!
Amen!
(((laurah2o)))
I'm so sorry.
Ivy,
That was great.