It just makes me sick....
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|Sun, 08-31-2008 - 8:51pm|
It makes me so sick to my stomach ....
There is a "woman" I honestly think she may be 20 or 21 yrs old, but whatever, she lives up the street from me in a duplex owned by her father, she lives with her boyfriend. Yes...can you see where I am going with this one?
She already has a little boy that is about 2 years old, and she is pregnant again. I found out this evening from her very nice grandmother (who lives on the other side of the duplex..probably there to babysit them) that she is due in two weeks, and that she is having another baby shower.
Now don't get me wrong, that's great I hope everything is wonderful, I hope the little baby is beautiful and healthy but COME ON!!
It is such a slap in the face, and it is bad enough to see that when I go to the grocery store or at the shopping mall, but 2 houses up the street....Man I am so angry.
I think what stings the most is I have been trying to keep myself very preoccupied so as not to notice her, running errands, playing with my DS, walking the dog, going to coutry fairs each weekend, housecleaning, and especially packing for our camping trip to Lake George NY. This afternoon, just as I was walking back to the house after closing up the camper for the trip was when I stopped to talk to my neighbor's grandmother as she was walking her dog....man what a way to put a damper on the begining of my vacation.
I really can't blame them, they have no idea about my problems....so I had to suck it up and maintain my composure during the entire conversation.
I am soooooo glad we are leaving for our camping trip tomorrow morning, at least I can escape from it for a while.
Me36, DH33, DS4, took us 5 years of misery(tons of blood work, tests, HSG, many clomid cycles & exploratory Laparoscopic with ovarian drilling) before we were blessed with him. TTC#2 since 2005. diagnosis PCOS. 2 miscarriages one at 7 wks, other almost 9wks. Multiple Clomid cycles..no luck. IVF#1 May 20 retrived, 15 fert,all but 2 stopped developing by day 4 = 2 frozen~BFN, IVF#2 July 18 retreived, 10 fert, all but 1 stopped developing on day 4 = 1 frozen ~BFN. Starting IVF#3, on BCP 8/7 estimated baseline U/S 9/10 to start Foll 9/12. RE wants to wait until day 5/6 for transfer and hope at least 1 makes it past the 4th day.