So emotional, where do I go next.....
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|Mon, 10-06-2008 - 4:55pm|
Ladies, I really don't know what is going on with me lately. My emotions have been all over this place. So here is the original plan as of August. TTC naturally till January than move to our last IVF. Then if all else failed then we would have my sister be our surrogate. Well all of a sudden I want to get moving again. I am just sooo tired of being in this position of a waiting pattern. I know it is possible to get preggers but how much more waiting, what else do I need to change?
So part of the reason I wanted to wait till January was because of the Holidays coming up and I was planning to travel and see our families. But right now at this moment I sooo want to start my family so much so that I am considering calling my RE at the end of this cycle and order BCP to get on the IVF schedule. This would also move up the possibilty of surrogacy with my sister. She is on board no matter what I decide. I know I have a purpose in all of this but it just seems so blurry right now (maybe it is the tears).
You all are so wonderful and it isn't that I want to leave. I just want my life back. I want to be pregnant or my sister to be pregnant for me.
TTC TTC #1 since June 2006, Me 28 & DH 29, IVF #1 ICSI and AH ~ BFN, IVF #2 Jan, DX ~ DOR not POF, TTC w/ the assitance of Traditional Chinese Medicine "If you take each challenge one step at a time, with faith and every footstep, your strength and understanding will increase." -James E. Faust