Not very hopeful

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Registered: 10-27-2007
Not very hopeful
Wed, 11-12-2008 - 10:08pm

I go in for my Beta tomorrow, it could have been done today.  I have POAS Sunday, Monday and today. All BFN.  I have had some dark spotting for the past 5 days. I'm praying for a miracle, but since I don't seem to get those I'm expecting the worst. I just hate waiting for the official news because then it's officially over.  This stuff bites big time.  Hopes and dreams, shattered one more time. It's really hard.


Karen S

Mother to Samantha Kelly ~i~ 7/31/07 at 39 weeks


5/06 ~ 1st IVF ~ BFN

11/06 ~ 2nd IVF ~ BFP ~ ended in 1 m/c at 8 wks and 1 stillbirth at 39 wks.

2/08 ~ 1st FET ~ BFN

4/08 ~ 3rd IVF ~ 5/08 BFP ~ ended as nonviable

10/08 ~ 4th IVF ~ 10/14, meds started ~ 10/28 ET ~ 11/12 1st Beta

Karen S

Samantha Kelly ~i~ 7/31/07

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Registered: 05-20-2008
Wed, 11-12-2008 - 10:23pm
(((HUGS))) Karen, I guess all we can do at this point is just wait and see.


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Registered: 11-07-2008
Wed, 11-12-2008 - 10:36pm

(((Hugs))) You sure are's definitely tough hearing


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Registered: 03-17-2008
Thu, 11-13-2008 - 8:01am

Hi Karen:

I'm so sorry but won't give up hope yet. ((((((HUG)))))))).

After my first IVF, I made the Army do my Beta because I could see the results myself and not have to be told by anyone. It made me feel that I had some control even though my POAS was -. Then the world was especially cruel because my AF was late and I POAS again and it was +. however, I am one of the few people who got a false + on a CBEPT which really sucked!

I'll keep you in my thoughts!



Waiting for DH to come home to try again!

In the meantime, herbs and prayers

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Franklin and Callan

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Registered: 10-31-2008
Thu, 11-13-2008 - 9:16am
(((HUGS))) Karen.


TTC since 6/2007. 
IVF #1 Jan 2009 - BFN
IVF# 2  April 2009 - BFN
IVF# 3 July

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Registered: 10-31-2008
Thu, 11-13-2008 - 10:45am
P&PT for your beta today.


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Registered: 12-18-2007
Thu, 11-13-2008 - 11:42am

Karen - I hope you unexpectedly get good news...

(I understand about feeling discouraged - my beta is Mon., and right now I'm not feeling optimistic either.)


KJ (32) & DH (39) PCOS Dx 3/04, confirmed 6/08 Off BCP since 12/07; irregular cycles (42-96 days long) Ovulated right off pill 1/08, but likely no O since (possible unsuitable O?)

(8/08): Clomid 100mg round; NO O; Cannot take Clomid again due to visual s/e

(10/08): Follistim 75; MANY follicles developing all at once after a week; RE suggests converting cycle to IVF.

Mom to Silas Walker, born July 2009, thanks to IVF. :)
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Registered: 01-08-2008
Thu, 11-13-2008 - 4:37pm

dear karen,

(((hugs))) i know you're expecting the worst, but i really hope it goes well. we're here for you!


TTC since Sept '06. Diagnosed w/ PCOS, DH diagnosed with azoospermia Dec '06, TESA Mar '07
IVF/ICSI/AZH#1 Aug'07, BFN (6 usable eggs, 5 embies, 2 transferred, 1st beta=18, 2nd beta=12, 0 made it to blast to freeze)
IVF/ICSI#2:retrieval Nov'07 (w/ fresh TESA), FET sched Jan'08, no embryos to transfer (23 usable eggs, 12 embies, 0 made it to transfer)
IVF/ICSI#3: retrieval Mar'08, FET May'08, BFN (13 usable eggs, 7 fertilized w/ DH sperm= 0 blasts, 6 fertlized w/ DS=3 blasts, all 3 transferred, 1st beta=74, 2nd beta=64, 3rd beta=42)
1st cycle IUI/clomid/donor sperm postponed due to lack of follicular growth on 100mg clomidx5days.


mom to beautiful baby lia.