Another year passes.....

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Registered: 09-30-2008
Another year passes.....
Mon, 12-08-2008 - 7:16pm

This is something that I just wrote, its not the greatest but i just wrote it as it came


Another year has past

Seasons come and gone

yet i still sit here wondering

why this battle i have not yet won


So many tests and procedures

all the prodding and poking

still no answers

and my little bean still won't be


I sit back and watch

all the babies and bellies

Kids that aren't even wanted

wondering when it will be me


So another year passes

being around family,having to put on that mask

everyone else happy as can be

gotta figure out something fast


They don't know the pain inside

they don't know the hurt

still I act like everything is perfect

not knowing the guilt that lurks


I pray every night

"please give me my double lines"

trying to keep faith and strength

hoping for the day I have a love I can call mine.


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Registered: 06-28-2008
Mon, 12-08-2008 - 7:24pm
awww, Heather...((((HUGS))))
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Registered: 08-03-2008
Mon, 12-08-2008 - 7:50pm

Thanks for sharing.

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Registered: 07-21-2008
Mon, 12-08-2008 - 8:02pm
That was really sad but really good. I hope you get your two lines soon!! And you get your beautiful baby in 2009!

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Registered: 06-12-2008
Mon, 12-08-2008 - 8:14pm
That is beautiful :)
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Registered: 06-16-2008
Mon, 12-08-2008 - 9:11pm
(((HUGS))), I can tell that is right from your heart. (((HUGS)))


Me 31, C 33. Together since 1994. TTC Since November 2006. Me-Low thyroid function, cystic ovaries but not PCOS....3 unmonitored cycles of Femara failed....RE/Urologist for C 12/1...deciding on



Me 32, C 34. Toge

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Mon, 12-08-2008 - 11:33pm


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Registered: 05-03-2008
Tue, 12-09-2008 - 9:33am

Lovely poem, BumbleB.

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Registered: 01-31-2008
Tue, 12-09-2008 - 9:45am
That is great writing, thanks for sharing. And big hugs.


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Registered: 10-31-2008
Tue, 12-09-2008 - 9:57am
Thanks for sharing!



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Registered: 01-08-2008
Tue, 12-09-2008 - 10:30am
(((hugs))) this poem speaks to all of us...


TTC since Sept '06. Diagnosed w/ PCOS, DH diagnosed with azoospermia Dec '06, TESA Mar '07. IVF/ICSI/AZH#1 Aug'07, BFN (6 usable eggs, 5 embies, 2 transferred, 1st beta=18, 2nd beta=12, 0 made it to blast to freeze). IVF/ICSI#2:retrieval Nov'07 (w/ fresh TESA), FET sched Jan'08, no embryos to transfer (23 usable eggs, 12 embies, 0 made it to transfer). IVF/ICSI#3: retrieval Mar'08, FET May'08, BFN (13 usable eggs, 7 fertilized w/ DH sperm= 0 blasts, 6 fertlized w/ DS=3 blasts, all 3 transferred, 1st beta=74, 2nd beta=64, 3rd beta=42). 1st cycle IUI/clomid/donor sperm postponed due to lack of follicular growth on 100mg clomidx5days.


mom to beautiful baby lia.