DH is frustrated
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|Mon, 01-05-2009 - 5:05pm|
So I know this is the only place that someone will understand!
DH got pretty upset with me the other day. I've been taking a bunch of estradiol (can u say moody?), not working and generally bummed as I passed my EDD, my bday and the holidays. I made some comments to him about this year being so awful and that nothing good happened. Didn't think much of it, but I think he was getting really frustrated with me. He finally told me the other night that he feels like he is being a bad husband b/c he can't fix things for me, and he thinks that I'm not going to be happy about anything until I have a baby in my arms. He asked me if that was the only thing I thought I needed in my life.
I was kind of surprised at the time, but looking back, I can understand where he is coming from. He married this happy-go-lucky person who has just been missing since my miscarriage. I realized that I need to try my best to move on. Hopefully I've seen my last operating room for a while and that will help, 4 trips into there in one year is just too much stress. And I think that getting past my EDD will help improve my mood. Plus all the preggies here at work are gone so I don't have to see belly rubbing for a while at least. Time to stop feeling bad for myself.
I guess that's it, just needed to get it off my mind. Thanks for listening.
ttc#1, got bfp in April '08, missed miscarriage, 1st d&c June 6, 2nd d&c Aug 1, hysteroscopy on Aug 20, methotrexate on Aug 26th. Diagnosed with Asherman's Syndrome on September 19th. Hysteroscopy scheduled for December 18th!