I'll NEVER understand this!
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|Wed, 03-04-2009 - 5:10pm|
So, I JUST found out that a friend of mine is pregnant. Ordinarily, I'd be at least marginally o.k. with the news. But for this person in particular, I just do not get it. I don't understand why God would allow this person to be a mother and not me.
She smokes constantly, drinks probably four days a week, she has only been with her boyfriend for two months, who BTW has just gone on trial for a 4th degree felony DUI with involuntary manslaughter and faces up to two years in prison. She will be homeless come May, an issue that she has resolved in coming to us for a room for rent at our house. She works as a temp at one place and barely shows up for work at the other. Oh, I haven't yet mentioned her recent DUI, as in two weeks ago! THE TOPPING ON THE CAKE IS: SHE AND HER BF WERE TRYING TO GET PG!!!
One more thing, when a mutual friend reminded her how expensive babies are she replied, "That's what my government and state are for." WHAT???!!! SERIOUSLY???!!!
How is this even o.k. for God to allow to happen? I don't get it! I will NEVER understand this reasoning, never! All I want to do right now is scream and cry and feel angry over all of this. It's stupid and UNFAIR! UGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME? What did do to be deserving of any of this? Seriously?! It's Bulls#!t!