Why did I think this might acually work?
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|Mon, 09-21-2009 - 9:26am|
URGH, just got in from my u/s and b/w this morning and things aren't looking good. I am basically not responding to the stims. I am on day 8 of stims and only have 6 follies, one of which is over 10. It is looking like my IVF cycle is going to get canceled. The nurse said they would wait to get my b/w results and discuss it this afternoon with the RE and let me know what to do. She said we could possibly convert this cycle to an IUI.
I asked her if it was looking like ovarian failure and she agreed that it was.
I am beyond depressed. I can't believe I let myself think this would actually work. I let my guard down and got all excited at the prospect of getting pg and having a healthy baby. It's obvious that it is just not in the cards for me. There has been one obstacle after another, when I am just going to let myself give up? DH asked me what I wanted to do, donor eggs? adopt? And I just can't even think about it right now. I'm numb.
I'm 37, DH is 41 and we are TTC #1. We've had 2 unexplained miscarriages and a bout with Asherman's Syndrome but we're determined.
IUI #1 = BFN
IUI #2 (Aug 09) = BFN
On to IVF - stims start Sept 14th!