feeling alone.

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Registered: 07-18-2009
feeling alone.
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Wed, 12-30-2009 - 9:44pm
The past few months since I've been going to the RE and have officially had infertility obsessions come into my life, I've never felt more alone. My friends all have children, and I feel like they are afraid to talk to me about it. When I do start discussing things like my progesterone level and temperature (such fun topics, I know), they shut down and never ask about it again. My husband is supportive, but I don't think truly understands how desperate i want to be pregnant RIGHT NOW. His mantra is "it's only our 2nd month of treatment". I'm just completely miserable and obsessing and feel like it is ALL i think about. I know it's not healthy to obsess, however i'm sure all of you know how difficult it is not to. Anyway, just needed to vent. Thanks!

Me (36) DH (38)- me-unexplained IF/hypothyroid -DH-counts good, but volume is low; Married in 2006, off birth control pill. Started officially trying in March of 2009.
2 rounds clomid/ovidrel 2009, 1 round femara/iui, 2010, 2 rounds follistim/iui 2010. Weight loss surgery 2011.  Back to new RE 2012: HSG normal, AMH 0.43= DOR; IVF with microdose flare protocol in February 2013.  

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Registered: 07-30-2009
Thu, 12-31-2009 - 9:01am

Vent away! And I hope we can help you feel less alone here. My friends are the same way about discussing my issues, they just don't know what to say or do. And I think DH's sometimes just don't get it either, I know mine comes from a totally different place with these things too.

Many hugs and please come let us know when you feel alone and need to be heard by people who understand!

 

Kelly

I'm 38, DH is 42 and we are TTC #1. We've had 3 unexplained miscarriages and a bout with Asherman's Syndrome but we're determined.

BFP #4! - 1/
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Registered: 04-05-2009
Thu, 12-31-2009 - 9:46am

Awe honey, big (((HUGS))) This road is difficult to navigate, sometimes I think I am losing my mind!

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Faith (35) Matt (40)

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Registered: 03-11-2008
Thu, 12-31-2009 - 1:54pm

I totally felt like you did - how can we not? It's totally normal to obsess so give yourself a break. I read a book that helped me stay in and appreciate the present moment: It's called "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle.

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Registered: 07-18-2009
Thu, 12-31-2009 - 6:15pm
Thanks so much everyone... I know I'm still pretty new to this whole thing, and I really don't think I'm strong enough. I know a few of you have been on this road for quite awhile, and I don't know how you do it. I'm angry at a lot of things, and I feel like this is the only place I can vent. We started officially trying this past March- I had bought the OV watch (damn thing doesn't work- I think I'm going to write an infertility letter to the creators and have them put it right next to the success stories). Figured i'd be pregnant in 3 months, tops. I feel blessed that my RE journey has been so quick to occur (one bad blood test from my ob/gyn and he gave his blessing to go to the RE). I know a lot of people have had to wait over a year. I'm very thankful that I've been able to start treatment already, even if it hasn't worked yet. I'm trying to get all the whining out in 2009 so 2010 is a newer, happier, more patient me. Thanks guys and hopefully 2010 is everyone's year. :)

Me (36) DH (38)- me-unexplained IF/hypothyroid -DH-counts good, but volume is low; Married in 2006, off birth control pill. Started officially trying in March of 2009.
2 rounds clomid/ovidrel 2009, 1 round femara/iui, 2010, 2 rounds follistim/iui 2010. Weight loss surgery 2011.  Back to new RE 2012: HSG normal, AMH 0.43= DOR; IVF with microdose flare protocol in February 2013.  

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Registered: 10-13-2009
Thu, 12-31-2009 - 10:25pm
Big hugs and I hope that you can find the strength from the wonderful ladies here. I'm wishing you all the best in your treatments.
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Registered: 09-06-2004
Fri, 01-01-2010 - 10:22am

I wish that IF did not have to be so difficult!

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Registered: 11-07-2008
Fri, 01-01-2010 - 11:40am

(((HUGS))), I've felt alone on this journey as well, it's difficult not to when people in our real lives


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