Does the worrying ever end?
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|Sun, 06-27-2010 - 10:25am|
Hi everyone, things are still looking good for me, but I am still worried. I know I need to think positive, but when you've had a loss at 12+ weeks, it's hard to relax. SO last Thursday we had an US with RE and DH was able to join me. Things looked great, I measured 7wks1day, and I should have been 7wks2days by ER. THe heartbeat was 141. THey graduated me, probably a little early since I am on ob/gyn and all. Told me to stop the estrace at 8 weeks, the crinone at 10 weeks, and the metformin at 12 weeks. DH of course thinks there is nothing to worry about. But I just can't get it out of my head about how we lost the last pregnancy. We had gone to our first trimester screen at 12 weeks 5 days and the heartbeat was just gone. No bleeding, nothing, just a headache was the only wierd thing.
So, now I find myself waking up everyday and feeling my bbs to see if they are still sore. I worry if my nausea is not as bad. If I have the slightest little cramp, I go crazy. I just wish I could fast forward to 14 weeks, maybe then I will feel better. I scheduled my first trimester screen for 13weeks this time. I will be at the beach at 12 weeks, and I am sure I will be worried the entire time. I may even swipe a doppler to take with me!
I know there is nothing DH or anyone can do, the odds of us having another baby with a chromosomal abnormality are very low. But I thought I would share my feelings here since DH doesn't want to hear them. THanks for listening.
Me(32), DH(34) TTC since July 2008. Dx PCOS
January 2009: letrozole, HCG, timed BD BFP, M/C 12 weeks
June 2009-August 2009: letrozole, HCG, timed BD all BFN
September 2009: letrozole, HCG, IUI BFN
October 2009: letrozole, HCG, IUI BFN
March 2010: clomid/dexamethasone, HCG, double IUI hoping for BFP, if not on to IVF in June 2010
5/18/10 ER, 33 eggs, 19 mature, 14 fertilized
5/23/10 ET of two embies, one frozen
6/2/10 Beta 134, 6/4/10 Beta 291, 6/8/10 Beta 1395, US on 6/24/10 one heartbeat 141!!